An online “friend” of sorts had told me one of his friends from HS/College hung herself while they were in College. He knew her since HS or something like that, but anyway, one day while they were in College, she hung herself. No one knew for days until somehow someone broke her door open (this was off campus).
Anyhow, I feel kinda jealous. Like this girl actually DID it. I mean, I’ve been suicidal since fucking forever, and wished I did it when I wanted to at age 7-9. Yes, I was already depressed and suicidal then. But back then I thought, “I’ll try to make it out of this abuse and shit life, and I’ll make something of myself, and life will be better.”
Well THAT was a mistake. All that did was have me struggle, struggle, and struggle, just to make it out of poverty and abuse, only to land RIGHT back into poverty after I got hit by a car and now struggle with tons of health issues, along with all the ills of poverty- shit neighbors, shit apts, shit life, etc.
If I had done it back then, shit, I wouldn’t be here so fucking miserable. I mean, think about it. How many YEARS, how many DECADES of pain, suffering, and trauma I would have escaped had I done it when I was 7.
The only problem is that you have to be lucky enough to do it properly, and it’s not easy given the lack of materials. Many ppl survive- whether it’s hanging, OD, gun, slashing wrist, etc. Hell, it’s insane that even death by gun is not 100%. IDK what the rate is but there’s way TOO many who wind up fucked up and still alive.
Anyhow I’m jealous that this girl not only TALKED about depression and suicide, but she actually DID IT, and DID IT SUCCESSFULLY. She’s lucky she didn’t have to suffer all these years and decades like I did, and still am, suffering.
I would already be gone if not for the fact that there is NO 100% guaranteed quick and painless way to go. And I don’t have the proper “drinks.”
Fucking ridiculous that we have to suffer so much on this damn Earth. -_-
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For me suicidal thoughts appeared at 14 and have dominated my mind since, thats 24 years, like your post says the regret is it all could have been avoided if I made the move. Regarding hanging, that seems to be a difficult method, I remember hearing about a guy that hung himself, ostensibly things seemed to be going okay, he had a partner,friends etc but did it anyway. Someone knew someone who saw his body at the morgue and the word was there was these severe burn marks on his wrists, apparently he had tried to pull himself back up from the noose. That has always put me off the idea of hanging.
yeah hanging seems difficult to pull off, which is why this girl is the goat for pulling it off. granted, we don’t know how long she was alive and hanging for.
and it’s not just hanging. there really aren’t any “good” ways. there’s pitfalls to each and EVERY one of them.
-ODing- 97% failure rate
-hanging- hard to pull off right, and takes a long time
-slashing wrist- hard to pull off on the 2nd side, and most ppl do it WRONG. and it takes a while to bleed to death even if you do it correctly.
-“He” or hood- hard to pull off properly and hard to resist the instinct to pull anything and everything off
-guns- lots of ppl have butchered their face/throat/chest and survive all f*ed up
-the things that DO work we can’t get our hands on
So we’re left to live and suffer and SLOOOWLY die, which is fucking stupid.
It’s kinda weird. There’s no program to support extremely depressed people, that for whatever reasons can’t go on. Prisoners get death sentences and people with insufferable pain get to sign a DNR or talk to a physician about having measures taken to drift away.
I’m not sure I’d take it right now, but it would be nice to know, there’s an easy exit strategy. My depression started with 11 and it’s eaten up anything I have loved. Very slowly. Very painfully.
It’s never easy to hang yourself. Like your last moments are pain when you do it. Plus u could survive is and be paralyzed for the rest of ur life. I’ve tried hanging but it was too painful. Sucks there’s not an easy way like just press a button or something similar to that. At least she’s at peace now though. I’d be jealous too.
that’s why i’m jealous. like girl fucking did it. and did it SUCCESSFULLY at that.
True I’ve heard it’s really painful…but what if one was lying down, it’s like stranggulation? You’re just cutting off your air and blood supply, think of people that have been kiild that way….seems to be relatively easy, quick and not too painful.
By hanging, you have all that weight on your neck, hence the pain.
Well there was an article I read a while about hundreds of people ending their lives in Ontario CA, with a simple plastic bag (over their heads).
Heck I bet a few pieces of duct tape are good enough for a fairly quick death so long as the tape doesn’t come off.
But a bag is probably better so your body feels like it’s still breathing and you won’t feel as distressed…but as CO builds up it gives you that panic sensation…which is why people use inert gaases like He and N2.
That’s probably the way I’d choose….probably with a back up. I know those who’ve done it also OD on other drugs as a ‘backup.’
Drowning is sure-fire too…how can it fail if you weight yourself down with rocks and so long as you’re not interrupted by anyone you’ll succeed.
For me, I’d definitely try to combine a few ways together to make sure nothing goes wrong….and the end is certain.
Agreed on gunshots, I’d never go that way, or jumping, or OD’ing (by itself)….since there a chance of surviving….but imagine being conscious and in pain and unable to move.
That’s the last thing I’d want for myself or anyone else in the world is to botch an attempt and have no way to “fix it” or try again or end up brain damaged. So it’s the kind of thing you only want to ever do once and get right the first time.
While there are cases of ppl dying with plastic bag over head, the VAST majority who try fail, and it is NOT good way to go. You need to factor in the amount of suffering during the process, and the rate of success. Hell, humans can die from drinking too much regular water. It’s not like just drinking regular water is a sure-fire way to kill oneself. And a plastic bag, while a few actually succeed, MOST DO NOT. And it isn’t painless.
Where are you getting your information from? I happen to have a pretty strong science bkgd by the way and yes I actually did the research.
So what studies are you citing where the ‘vast majority try and fail’? I recall you did have some science education as well so you should know that if you cut off O2 then ofc you’re doing to pass away…it’s essential to our survival.
The only way it can fail is if there’s a leak anywhere…or if one pulls off the bag during the process. If you cut off air/O2, you can’t survive, that’s basic biology.
Yes I mentioned an example of evil parents killing their kids by forcing them to drink too much water….maybe you didn’t read that post…but it’s a torturous way to go.
I never said it’d be totally painless…you’re straw-manning me….you’ll feel panic/suffocation…if one can get beyond that and go unconcious, then you can ‘succeed.’
Ofc this is why people use He/N2 as I already said because you don’t get that panic sensation….if you studied this subject then you should’ve known about people who’ve died from pure N2 environments and kids who climbed into He balloons/passed out and died….they had no warning, no signs of panic or suffering, it’s the best way to go.
Have you done *any* research into suicide me.thod.s? a simple plastic bag? you think it’s that easy? just duct tape? I’ve done extensive research and it’s NOT that simple. Not unless you want near 100% fatality rate and minimal suffering. If you’re only looking for what’s “technically possible” then sure. But again, dying from drinking too much H20 is also technically possible.
how do you hang yourself lying down? hanging ONLY works the few times it does BC of the fact that you’re hanging and gravity will eventually win. and that is not without a long painful struggle to the end. and you can’t self strangulate, at least not very well and not very effectively, even more difficult than hanging. 97% of OD’ing does not end in death. And Yes, Every strategy CAN and DOES give permanent damage if unsuccessful. Nem is safe? Just go and try again if you fail? Uh no. Failed attempts can lead to permanent brain damage. NO ME.THOD that actually works is “safe” and won’t lead to some kind of permanent damage if the attempt fails. That is why suicide is so hard.
Where did I say you’re “hanging yourself” lying down? Don’t put words in my mouth. I said strangulation. As I mentioned above I’d done my own research…not sure why you’re getting rude about this.
You claim that the bag method with duct tape isn’t successful yet repeatedly fail to explain why it doesn’t work…when I already mentioned hundreds of people have passed away using exactly this method.
Are you aware of Exit Intl? It was founded by a doctor (look it up) who espouses exactly this method but with inert gas.
If you’re lying down, you’re obviously not ‘hanging.’ People have died this way through self choking/autoerotica (with a rope for instance).
You claimed to have done the research yet seem to be very ill-informed on this topic.
Once again you’re straw-manning me, show me where I claimed that OD is successful, it looks like you didn’t read properly or you didn’t understand what I said. I am not a supporter of overdosing…except with drugs that are known to work…for example morfeen, fen and nem.
But as I said in my note, I’d always combine it with other methods since I don’t consider them to be 100% reliable on their own.
Anyhow I was throwing ideas out to help people who might not have considered these ways of “doing it.”
At the end of the day each person needs to decide how much they want to suffer in life and what options they might take to ‘get out.’
I know for me if I lose everything I value right now…esp. my health/job/family, then that’s my cue to end it.
Some people suffer like crazy and complain about it…but then they also shoot down ideas that could free them from their prison cell. I feel sorry for them because then know there is a way out but they’re either too afraid to try or have convinced themselves it won’t work for the wrong reasons, even though there’s plenty of evidence that it works.
I doubt you’ll find any mthod that’s 100% perfect…but if it’s near enough, then there’s little reason to doubt its efficacy…besides, you can back it up with another method to make it foolproof. It’s fear at the end of the day, same for me…we’re just too afraid to try and be ‘wrong’ or mistake, but I say trust science, it’s never wrong.
“But a bag is probably better so your body feels like it’s still breathing and you won’t feel as distressed”
That is completely wrong. The body feels the distress right away bc you will feel right away the lack of air. And you will struggle from the first moment, that first breath. Let’s just say I know this to be true. A bag is one of the worst ways to go.
Will you suffer with a bag? Yes, that’s why people use inert gaas….it makes it more tolerable.
But no worries, if that’s not for you, I can understand…for me it’s acceptable. I’m not waiting around for the “perfect mthod” but whatever works well…and it does as proven by hundreds of people who’ve used it before.
I think we’d all wish we could get our hands on Nem, but might as well wish to become millionaires then, same odds of success.
What we need is for some group to make Nem, it’s basically the best way to go. I think the drug dealers don’t make it cause their clients will only pay them once…but if they charge a lot they could still ‘win.’
Nem with bag would be perfect imo…it isn’t easy to produce or acquire. Thanks to the rotten ‘goodie-goodies’ who want to stop people from ending their lives and banned it everywhere.
Even now for legalized euthanasia, they can’t seem to find anything as good as Nem and sometimes they’ve botched it also, taking up to 24 hrs to end someone.
I should add, it’s also very safe from what I’ve read…I’ve heard of people who OD’d on it, then woke up a couple of days later, perfectly fine, brains were normal.
So if you “fail” with nem, you can still try again or use something else or in combination with it…just an amazing drug. What more could one ask for? Ofc if I took it I’d rather not ever come back…so I’d use it with a bag as mentioned.