It’s Thanksgiving today. My folks and brother came up to see me. Got here on Monday. I’m happy to see them, but I kind of forgot what it was like to be around people. Especially since I have a set routine and way of doing things here. It also doesn’t help that they are practically geriatric. Getting anywhere or telling them something requires a lot of patience which I’ve never really had. I know I should, but I don’t. It gets to a point where I get annoyed trying to get lunch. I don’t want to be short with them, but it slips out all the time. I know my Mother is also holding her temper because she can clearly see me get annoyed or the like. They leave Saturday morning. Tomorrow we go to Boston.
My labmates had a Thanksgiving dinner today. Three or so made the majority of the food with a few of the others bringing what they could. I brought cranberry sauce. Nobody really seemed to have all that much. That’s ok. Honestly I was banking on it because I really like cranberry sauce and I got to take the leftovers. I only planned to be there an hour, but it started late so I stayed for 2 1/2. It was ok. It was mostly just eating and talking. I didn’t say anything, just listened. Didn’t mind since I never really have anything to say. The few times I talked to people it was always so awkward. I stumble and say odd things. I’m confused by people. Don’t really understand them. I only ever talk to them about lab stuff or homework. I pretty much only ever have “small talk” with one particular teammate. I guess it could be said that I’m closest to her out of all of them, but that really isn’t saying much. We just happen to be on the same team and she tends to be nice, so that includes “small talk”. I still feel inferior to all of them. Like I don’t really belong there. It’s not like this dinner really changed that. Just for once I ate around people instead of the empty table I have at my apartment.
Some songs I’ve been listening to. Both of these are really on the nose. But I guess that’s fine. One of them (Dying Alone) I just typed into Spotify while drinking because that’s how I was feeling at the time. The other (Be) is just a favorite from one of the artists I like. Pretty sure I posted it before.
These two I’ve just been listening to for no real reason.