Everything bothering me seems so small and petty. So, why do these things bother me?
I got some new clothes for interviewing, but I’ve gone up a neck size because I’ve gained weight…. and my internal critic is calling me fat, and I’m not, but it still bothers me that none of my shirts or suit jackets fit
Then last night our water heater went out…. and it really bothered me, and at the same time I’m aware that it’s a small modern inconvenience. Hot water on demand is such a luxury, even in the modern world.
and I wish the job would come back to me sooner and with more enthusiasm……
it’s all so stupid, so pointless
I already have so much, and so much control, but still I want more. Can’t help but feel greedy, or selfish.
and just now my old crappy moniter I’d been using for alerts died, and so I had to swap in an even older and even crapier monitor
again, I have three screens on my computer, plus another three now that don’t work, and another that is about as bad (or good, framing and whatnot) as the one I just swapped in, and I had to restrain myself from going out and buying another monitor on credit…… because it isn’t a need, it’s an irritation, most of my problems are irritation