update?

it’s been five years since i joined this website– three since i wrote something. i’m a college sophomore now which is pretty wild considering i tried to end it back in tenth grade.

i guess it’s sort of a good-bad thing. i used to be this perfect little daughter and well talk about adulting. it definitely is scary i’ll be turning twenty this year, not super stoked about it.

i moved a thousand miles away from home to be with someone who had kind of saved my life. i’d always felt i owed them something and that i could and should do anything for them. i kept convincing myself i had moved for my future and my goals and not just a human. a month into college, i found out they were seeing someone behind my back

betrayal stinks but oh well. it’s been a year and a half now and i hope i’m doing better.

ever since i moved out, my family’s been trying to get closer to me or basically get me to share stuff with them in case yk. i’ve never felt more distant from them. (literally and figuratively) i had visited them during the holidays last december, things seem to have changed. a lot. but i guess that’s part of growing up.

change is good or at least i hope it is. either way, i’d like to see how long can i make it.