I don’t get them often. Its been 2 years since I last had one, when I was leaving my ex. My throat closes up and its hard to breathe. Stomach in a knot, nausea, chest tightening. I don’t know what brought it on today. Nothing to do but lie down until it passes. Anyone else get them?
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Yes, I didn’t start getting them until about two years ago. Mine, were brought on by just being emotionally or mentally overwhelmed. It’s pretty difficult to predict what will trigger that though. At least it is for me.
Hmmm, I guess I was feeling that way today. I had to tutor someone in the morning and I guess it took a lot of energy to hold my shit together during the session, so when it ended I kinda crashed and burned. What are your strategies when it happens?
Honestly, I had to start calling friends or family. Not for help, but to distract myself long enough by focusing on their problems until my panic either subsided enough to function, or I grew numb enough to achieve the same goal. If that didn’t work, then I just had to hope that it would pass quickly. Find something else to distract my brain from functioning properly.
I’ve done that before. But I don’t like to bother people who are busy. The only thing that didn’t go away is the nausea. Stomach still knotted, and I wonder if it’s hunger pangs and I should eat something, but I have such little appetite I could only manage a few bites
I had written a longer comment, but I lost it. I’m far on the other end, too relaxed now. I need a shower. I need more respect for institutions.
Yeah, they’re kind of half panic attacks. It starts, then I intervene in flow. Sometimes, because I’m getting really cranky about doing this so often lately, I think about not doing it, let chaos reign.
Then I remember I’m only intervening because there’s energy in the budget to pay for it. Well I do my job, and I get paid.
The day they short me, and by they I mean the rest of my body, that’s the day I take this off rails. This body might be in a right to work state, but the whole damn thing is unionized, one part gets mad they all do.
Employers so often ask “well can’t you?”, and the answer is always no. You think I didn’t try? Geez if I could abuse myself like regular people, I’d be much less medicated.