I dont even want anyone to care anymore I’d rather no one knew of me at all. I’ll just deal with being alone. Like I’ve been. they just all need to get away from me now. it’ll all just hurt them and me in the end and while I’d deal they dont deserve that. I don’t have much holding me back anymore, and if I can just somehow get through to them I’m not worth it, then it’ll be much easier. I cant even look at myself. I’ve barely been out of bed. it’s getting so bad I dont even think I can get out this time. but I dont deserve to get out of it – do I?? thought about talking to- well- any of them. but I wont. I cant. I did this to myself. I’m not hurting anyone else.
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I’m sorry you’re suffering. Talking to the people around us is hard. It seems pointless or just a bad idea. Suffering alone also seems like a bad idea. From a certain perspective anyways. I guess I’m being a bit hypocritical. I hope you can find someone close to you that you can talk to. Someone that’ll do what they can to help because they want to. A person who’ll make it easier for you to get out of bed and look at yourself. They are out there. I really hope you find them. As always I hope things get better.
I just don’t want to cause any more problems than me being here already has. Talking would just make more problems or at least it seems that way. I don’t want to become a problem for that hypothetical person either. I just don’t know anymore man. But thank you as always, you help a lot more than you realize. I just don’t think I deserve it.
That’s understandable. I hope I’m not overstepping, but that’s also kind of the whole deal with human relationships. We cause problems for other people and they cause problems for us. We provide some sort of happiness for them, they provide it for us. The reasons why they are willing to deal with us, good and bad, shouldn’t really be looked at too hard. It just is. So this hypothetical person will take the bad and good and be OK with it. Even if you feel like you don’t deserve it. Hope I wasn’t being too overbearing. As always, I hope things get better.