I don’t know how to feel about this.
I don’t wanna go see him once he’s born.
I’m so estranged from my older brother.
I’m so estranged from all my immediate family members and relatives
They’ll all say I did this to myself and they’re right but that doesn’t help. It just makes me want to get further away from them.
I love them but I don’t wanna show them for some reason.
I haven’t gone to funerals, birthday parties, holiday celebrations, weddings in years.
The only way I can cope with these events is by drinking heavily
I just want to disappear from their lives.
This event may just expedite that process
I don’t know what to make of my relationship with my brother.
I honestly don’t want to go see this nephew of mine when he’s born.
How did I become this kind of person? I don’t know
Why did I become this person? I don’t know
I just know getting close to others hurts.
I feel like a robot
I don’t wanna go see him once he’s born.
I’m so estranged from my older brother.
I’m so estranged from all my immediate family members and relatives
They’ll all say I did this to myself and they’re right but that doesn’t help. It just makes me want to get further away from them.
I love them but I don’t wanna show them for some reason.
I haven’t gone to funerals, birthday parties, holiday celebrations, weddings in years.
The only way I can cope with these events is by drinking heavily
I just want to disappear from their lives.
This event may just expedite that process
I don’t know what to make of my relationship with my brother.
I honestly don’t want to go see this nephew of mine when he’s born.
How did I become this kind of person? I don’t know
Why did I become this person? I don’t know
I just know getting close to others hurts.
I feel like a robot
1 comment
Some people just aren’t close to their family. Not necessarily a bad thing. If it bothers you that you don’t want to see them, maybe ask to go see him first? See what their response is. Even if you don’t really feel like it, maybe seeing a brand new face might do something.