Sorry if my post is a bit incoherent…
I’m stuck, lost and trapped in my whole A COMPLETELY LONG MAZE MIND SEEMINGLY ENDLESS AND DOESN’T GO ANYWHERE WHY AM I TRAPPED IN THIS DAMN MIND OF MINE?????????
Why do I take anyone seriously, this whole world just seems like a complete and utter clown show anyway. People are all over the place like a damn yo yo yo yo yo yo yo yo.
Can you REALLY trust anyone? LOL, no you CAN’T. (this doesn’t necessarily make people bad, that’s just how things are).
I feel like I’m just a speck of fucking dust trying to navigate, but I’m just stuck there, and I can’t move myself off. And no-one is going to dust off that speck of dust I am.
YES, I’ve had good moments in my life, but my suffering seems to be much bigger than these moments. Don’t people realize, we just do the same ‘ol crap everyday and then ALL FOR WHAT????? lol.
REALLY, for what?????????? LOL.
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That’s the worst part of this madness I agree, sometimes our highest highs only make our lowest lows all the more promenant sometimes. In my 15 years even this is true.
The only comfort I can offer is that with time the drag effect causes the highs to be so high that they eclipse the lowest of your lows, and this might be personal to my story.
I was depressed because I wasn’t doing anything with my life, and time after time my life collapsed under me. I mean that’s still why I’m depressed, I’ve just gotten better at recovering from this type of blow.
So I learned to find dreams and follow them, find something to cling onto in these awful situations. Something new I could try, or something old I could try again. So far it’s been working. I believe living well is the best revenge.
Thanks for replying. Hmmmm, your last sentence is definitely food for thought!
Totally agree, you can’t trust anyone. Even if you trust their intentions, you can’t trust their actions & choices. For example they might try to “help” by calling the cops on you or something equally stupid. But going by your earlier posts, I think you’re talking about people betraying you which is the worst.
So I guess if you can’t trust anyone then the outcome is isolation, or at best putting up social barriers. Same thing pretty much.
Well you can trust animals once you get to know them. That may seem trivial, but it’s actually pretty big if you consider that animals outnumber humans. Basically what I’m saying is, if you’re confused navigating this idiotic human society, you can root yourself in knowing that the natural world makes sense. Trees produce oxygen, that’ll never change. Birds sing and plant seeds, that’ll never change. Dogs & cats will keep you warm and make you feel loved. It’s not an entirely bad deal.
You’re right. No one is going to “dust off the speck of dust” that is yourself. But you aren’t just a speck of dust.
Sure, universally speaking, we seem really small, but we can only navigate life through ourselves, and our own experiences.
You’re a speck of dust, but you’re not meaningless. You can do things to improve your life, I’m sure.
What those things are does depend on you as a person, but I believe you can eek out something good for yourself.
Trust is something that has to be earned. That being said, sometimes you do have to take a chance and be vulnerable yourself. You should have someone you can bare yourself to that won’t take advantage of you or use that to hurt you. I’m sorry if someone you may have trusted turned out to be a POS or fucked your ability to trust others, but trusting others, and having people who can trust you does wonders for your pysche.
All this coming from a fucked in the head individual like myself, means anyone can do these things in their own ways.