Interviews went okish. Kinda screwed up the first one cause I was nervous and I actually kinda wanted this job. Second one went better but not by much. I immediately got a follow up for the second one though so that’s something. Sucks that it’s a defense company. I am in no position to be on my high horse and say that I’m too good to be working for those companies, but it’d be nice if the stuff I made didn’t end up getting people killed. It’s a technical interview with multiple parts so I’ll probably screw it up anyways.
I wake up now thinking about my subpar research proposal. How bad it is and how I should be working on it. I have a little more than a month. Any competent person with my kind of schedule could make a decent proposal that would give them a shot at the fellowship. Too bad I’m not one of those. Still haven’t heard of anything from my labmates. Should have expected that. It’s not like they can write it for me, so there’s no point in bugging them about it. All the feedback in the world wouldn’t help one bit. I’m just not capable of it. This next month is going to suck if I the first thing that comes to my mind is this proposal, but once it’s in the rear view I should forget about it like everything else.