Day 2 is done. I’ve only had this job two days and both felt like a thousand years. To be fair it’s because I’ve done nothing but watch training videos. Stuff I really should retain, but I can’t be bothered to memorize all the different labels and permits and procedures. We don’t have a roof crane. Why do I need to know how to operate a roof crane? But it’s my job to know these things. In order to excel at my job I need to memorize how to lock out a conveyor belt and the safety measures to power down the pneumatic pump. This is my last chance. I’ve said it before, but if I can’t get this right that means I’m incapable of doing the things I actually want to do. I should finish the videos tomorrow. Then I have to shadow someone. Then I’m on my own. And if I screw up then it’s on me.
I met my manager’s manager today. The department manager He’s been here for a couple months. He’s been out for a while due to health issues but came back today. My manager showed me around yesterday. She’s the section manager. She didn’t seem to know what’s going on or what to do with me. I only started my online training a few hours before I left yesterday. She didn’t know where the videos were so I spent a good chunk of the day twiddling my thumbs and trying to watch other technicians work. My manager has only been here a month. Both of them and everyone else in my department seem to be employed by another company that’s not Amazon. JLL or something like that. I’m apart of another company that’s not JLL. So basically they are outsourcing the outsourced job. God forbid Amazon have to pay benefits to their technicians.
We had standup today. They welcomed back the department manager. They talked about how this time of year things are hard for people mentally and to talk to someone if you need to. To be nice to each other because you don’t know what someone’s going through. They also introduced me. The department manager mentioned how I have to earn my place and how they’re going to try to upgrade me from a temp position to a full time one. I know he was trying to be nice, but it only made me feel worse. That’s exactly what I’m afraid of.
Radio head has always been somber and moody, but this particular track is the latest vibe. Little on the nose, but what can you do.