February is half way done. Shortest month of the year. 11 weeks down. I’m close to being half way done. I hope. Actually I don’t need to really count anymore. Since I know for a fact that WPI isn’t an option anymore, I’m leaving the minute I get a job offer for an actual engineering position. Fuck whatever timed contract I signed. But I’m still going to keep track. Because if I don’t get one by the time 6 months is up, I might as well put a bullet in my brain.
PC is busted. God forbid anything good happen to me. It won’t start up sometimes and crashes sometimes. Took it to microcenter and paid those pricks 80 bucks to take a look at it. Apparently an app I had corrupted some system files. They wanted to charge me $250 for a data backup and a reinstall of windows. Fuck that. I can do that shit myself for free. And they didn’t even figure out the boot up issue. Corrupted system files shouldn’t cause that. They said they couldn’t replicate the issue. More like they couldn’t be bothered to try. Now I have to go pick it back up. Can’t do it until Sunday cause of work so I’m stuck using a laptop my mom smartly told me to take before I moved out.
Like a dumbass I left my cover letter template on my PC so I can’t apply for some jobs without it. I just change like 3 lines of text because I ain’t rewriting for each and every company. I’ve applied to maybe 75+ places since the beginning of January. Maybe a little less. Like I said the jobs are starting to dry up. I’ve started to applying to places in the South now that WPI is bust. But I tend to scrutinize them a bit more that jobs on the coasts or midwest. Some of the jobs I saw that I probably would’ve applied to if they weren’t in the Carolinas or Florida have closed out. Missed out on those opportunities. Interviewing has been whatever. Had two this week. Didn’t feel any particular way about them. One of them asked me why I wanted to work there. What a stupid fucking question. Cause I need a job were I can use my degrees and not spend 12 hours in a noisy ass dirty ass warehouse. I think the only job I’ve interviewed so far that seems interesting was the space arm one. They said they would update me by the end of the week, but haven’t heard anything from them. Will probably have to email the hr person that set up the interview. Like I said I think that one went well but again that doesn’t really mean anything.
I mentioned last post that one of the techs seems to be getting wise to the fact that I actually hate it there. Seems like another tech is getting the same idea. Same one that has an engineering degree. Both know that I have a masters degree from the time they asked. The guy asked me if “I felt I was becoming dumber by working there” Or at least that’s how I remember him phrasing that. I said no and that a job was a job. He then tried to rephrase it and then I went on to say that I don’t think I’m too good to work there. Which I’m not. Otherwise I wouldn’t be working there to begin with. He then said he meant to ask if I wish I was in a job where I was using my degrees. Which of course I said yes I would. Because of course I want to use the things I spent 8 years getting. At the time I didn’t think to ask him the same question. I think I accidentally showed my frustration with my answers. Oh well again what are any of them going to do about it.
I go on and on about how much I hate the job, but that’s not entirely true. Like I said a job is a job and I don’t feel any particular way about checking rollers and putting in bands. Sure it sucks to get up at 3 AM and it sucks to roll around the floor sometimes to get under the conveyors, but other than that it’s whatever. I more so hate the situation I’m in. The fact that my degrees I spent so long trying to get are going to waste. The fact that I was accepted into a PhD program only to have it taken away from me by that cocksucker Trump and his dumbass policies. The fact that I tried for months to get a cool robotics job only to get stuck with a technician job. I hate all those things. But the actual job itself I feel nothing for. The cool guys I met at the job are probably the only thing good about that place. Everything else is just a pain in the ass I got to get through.
One of the lyrics in this is “Is God the Devil himself?” It shows to be true later. I’ve been thinking a lot about religion again lately. This post is already long as it is so I might talk about it another time. Although I think I’ve already said what I’ve needed to say before.