-Can’t do drugs- don’t want to go down that route. Plus I’m too innocent and wouldn’t even know how to get any.
-I don’t like the taste of alcohol. I honestly don’t understand why the entire world loves alcohol so much.
-I do like food but where I live there’s nothing good nearby. That’s what happens when you live in a poor shitty neighborhood. And I’m too poor to order delivery. Prices are exorbitant as it is, let alone delivery apps jacking everything up.
-Can’t do caffeine- even a small amount makes me jittery. It’s insane to me how the rest of America is caffeined to the gills and don’t even feel anything unless they have multiple cups.
-can’t really do shopping cuz that requires money.
-there’s nothing good by me so can’t go to the park or movies or whatever. Shit neighborhood and shit weather 9 out of 12 mo a year in this shitty ass shit city.
-What’s left? I guess that’s why ppl cut. But I’m not into that either.
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Yup you listed all the ways of coping. If you don’t have access (or are too smart to fall into the trap of addiction) then you’re outright screwed. Nobody can survive life completely sober with no distractions, no luxuries to offer even a half day’s peace.
I’m off the alcohol and mostly off the drugs, but I still saturate myself with coffee and engage in lots of self harm, so I don’t count myself as clean.
Sleep is basically the only safe way to cope, but due to the coffee I need to take benadryl to sleep. I still think benadryl is mostly safe since I’ve been abusing it since high school and nothing terrible has happened to my health yet (not like what alcohol started to do to me). So I’d say if you can spare $5 try picking up a small pack at a gas station or whatever. Take a tiny dose, like half a pill, and see if that at least gives you a full nights sleep to recharge. Other than that, like you said what else is there?