I think this might be the day I do it properly. The only thing that stops me is the love I have for my children. If they didn’t exist this would be so easy. I broke up with my boyfriend three months ago. It’s taken of this long to realise he’ll never come back to me. I left my husband and children for him. I love him so much. I can’t live another day without him.
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Hi CF, I know things can be hard. I’ve never left somebody for somebody else for it to end so soon. I can’t say i know exactly what kind of pain you are going through, but i can say i go through pain everyday. Heartache wondering why are we here? Why are we living in hell already in a place we call earth. Is this really hell for something we did in our past life? who knows. I’ll never know. I know i have a child aswell, soon to be two and as much as i’d like to say goodbye to everything in this world she keeps me going. Postive thoughts help wonders. I’ve heard and read lots of people say, what reason do they have? I see your biggest reason, your children. Children without all else need there mother. i truly belive that. I’ve seen it a few times where the mother leaves for whatever reason, never to be seen again. I’ve soon two sets of kids go down hill from being happy positive kids because something happened to there mother. Kids generally have the biggest bod with there mother. Think about the kids, think about last time they were happy, think about last time they made you smile. Stay strong, Think positive and hold your head high. If you ever wanna chat message me on FB. Take care
LB
Hey CF, I am truly sorry to hear of your pain.
Obviously I do not know why your bf did what he did, but I do know that there ARE people who not only care for you – but there are others who would LOVE to love you.
Okay, this guy did not work out. It sucks – I do not deny that. It sucks bad. But – why not give the rest of us a chance to get to know you. Don’t you think other guys are worthy of loving you???
Give us guys a chance. We are not all bad.
God bless.
Thank you both for your comments. I spent several hours today with my bungee noose around my neck. I always seem to stop myself before I pass out. I saw my docter today and she increased my prozac to 40mg. Don’t think drugs can make this pain go away.
You are welcome CF.
I do not want to sound like some “rah rah” person. But I am hoping you will continue to talk to me. I would love to get to know you more.
I am not saying that your pain will go away or that I have ANY good answers. I just know the pain….. Which I actually find ironic – cuz it is more like NO pain, no feelings, no emotion….. more like already being dead inside (at least for me).
But I would enjoy talking more IF you want to.