Couldnt control my crying once more..
This time, it got worse, I was trying to run away from hurting myself, so i took some sleeping pills, and slept the day away..
Woke up to another dose of pain and yelling, then took some more.. and slept away..
I slept and slept till i lost the count of days.. It got so bad that I actually tripled the dosage.. I wanted to escape life..
Unfortunately I woke up…
Though I’m living today as a zombie.. I still don’t want to live..
The burden of being selfish to take out my life is hindering me…
But not for long..
I just wonder how can you be happy, knowing that it is just fake and temporary?!
I don’t know what happiness is, I don’t know how to stop being hurt.. All I know is that I am drained..
I lost
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There is no doubt that some people are generally happy. I worked with a women who lost her mother at a young age but always had a huge smile on her face. I’ve suffered from depression for years and years. But i did take some drugs when i was younger so maybe it’s my fault. What i’m saying is that for most people happiness can be an illusion. If you feel consistently low then please tell your doctor and he can give you some happy pills. I’ve been on them for about a decade. It’s also good to talk. I too took a load of sleeping pills once and woke up a day later. Maybe you have a future purpose in this life that right now you can’t see. The mind lies to you. You do have hope.