It`s kind of funny, really. I guess the universe really does want me to die. I didn’t really think it could get any worse, but I should have learned by now not to say that.
School was lonely enough with friends, but now even they have been taken. If there ever was something to live for, it would be for my friends.Oh well I suppose it`s for the best. I was ptobably going to off myself anyway, and now they won`t have to feel bad about it.
I guess I really am meant to die. Well, as soon as I have my room cleared out, good byes said, ond notes written I will be gone. 1 month. By the end of september I will be gone, my family will be free, and the world relieved of a burden.
Forget homework forget life forget my future. Nothing matters. everything is pointless. Life is a lie that shallow and ignorant people cling to in the hopes of finding something real.
To anyone reading this, I`m sorry. This isn`t interesting at all, nor does it have any value whatsoever. It`s just scrambled sentences. I used to be smart. I`m taking college courses in high school. But I just don`t do anthing anymore. I was going to have future. Be history teacher. Write novels. I used to be able to write beautifully. I was planning on being one of those old cat ladies because no one could possibly want me. But it doesnt matter. I am too dirty and damaged to be worthy of anything. I`ve become this screwed up freak who burdens others.
I`m sorry to anyone who stuck through and read the crap that I write.
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Hey…stop…no. Hahah old cat lady? oh my…im sure some guy has passed you by in real life and thought “awww shes such a cute little nerdy girl i wonder what her number is”. How are you dirty? :/ Take a shower…stop being so damn negative to yourself…stop.
Hey, that’s right AtTheEnd!
You still do write beautifully BehindTheSmile.
Better a cat lady than a bag lady I guess…I’ve been on the verge of being both at times in my life.
Look how bright you are. Prob cute too, I don’t think I saw your pic. More important than any of those things, you’re your own person BehindtheSmile. You’re not afraid to be different. To deviate from cultural norms. From a conventional idea of beauty, etc.
That’s quite unusual in a young woman (I’d say girl, but I don’t wanna patronise you. That’s my feminist training, lol!) of your age. So to ‘cute’, ‘knowledgeable’, ‘really intelligent’ and ‘a good writer’, let’s just add ‘pretty damn mature’…what do you say?
Love, Zx
why are you losing all your friends? Did you have to move, changing schools? Friends come and go, its hard but it happens. Keep in touch on facebook or whatever and make new friends. Hmm so if you don’t enjoy high school and are already taking college classes anyway why not just graduate early and be done with high school? Come on the world needs more crazy cat ladies, imagine all the little starving kittens if you aren’t there to feed them!
Which method are you going to use? I want to go also but not sure to which way I should use. Tell me your thoughts.
Heuilm
Dashbord.? Helium off your self.
Thank you everyone.
;-; stayyyyyyy or else
or else what : l thanks