So why the fuck would anybody stay around after all this, fuck that, i know im still here but my body wants to die and i dont know how im going to get passed this, its really not worth trying, once im gone, i wont have to worry how im going to live, where im going to get money, nah..i cant, ive lived this way for a year and its not getting any better,
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Hello Atlanta,
I lived in Athens, GA for over ten years. (Not relevant, just sayin’) I don’t know if it will be any help, but I wrote an entry titled “Revelation” on this site a few days ago. I have done a lot of research in the past five or six years and I can say that the majority of people in this country have unrealistic expectations and hopes about things such as “success”, “happiness”, etc.
A little about me: I currently live in Winston-Salem, NC. I work as a personal trainer/ boxing coach and I had a book published almost a year ago. I have lived out of my car before and I have been heartbroken and left behind, several times. If I could give you some advise, I will say this: It’s okay to dive into life with no expectations. Society will preach otherwise, but a very wise man once said “If one cannot enjoy the present, planning for the future is futile.” Don’t worry, life isn’t going to “do you in”. The sad truth is that life will go on even when you’re at “rock bottom”. You will wake up tomorrow to another mundane day and another and another and this pain will fade and more will follow. Good and bad stuff is always gonna’ happen. You have to learn to tolerate and adjust more efficiently.
Society always has a way of making you feel like you’re maladjusted or “behind” your peers in some way. This is so you’ll work harder at your job to buy the various things that will bring you “success” or “happiness”. This assures the corporate C.E.O. that there profits will remain huge and assures the government that they will be able to continue to skim their taxes off of a higher sum, since you will constantly feel in need of something to “catch you up” or bring a smile to your face.
What’s the last thing that made you truly happy? I bet it wasn’t your condo or your job. You have to change your mindset or you’ll feel in constant need of more assets. As far as your family goes: You can’t get them to love and respect you, if you don’t love and respect yourself.
Get up tomorrow and set a goal for yourself. Nothing irrational, something simple and requires a small amount of effort to accomplish. When you’ve accomplished it, feel truly gratified. Think about how happy you could become if you increased the goal and effort just a little each day. Even if you didn’t quite reach your goal on some days, how far would you have come in a year.
Everyone falls, some harder and further than others, but the “successful” ones never seem to fall, because they’re so quick to get back up that no one notices.
Thanks for your advice!! I really appreciate it, i accually stay bethlehem ga,