Why do people think it’s funny to tell you to go kill yourself. Someone told that to me today and I thought that it wasn’t going hurt me that bad, but it did. The voices in my head started screaming to go do it. I can’t make them go away and the worst part about it is that I was okay with dealing with my suicidal thought for a little while now and I just got sent back to the bottomless well that I can’t find away out of. No one where I am understands what I’m going through and it sucks that they don’t because I have one one to talk to. Killing myself sounds like a really good answer, then I look at what people it would hurt and I try to shut the voices up. I keep waking up every hour and I’m so tired. I wonder what would happen if I had killed myself and what would happen to the person that said I should kill myself. It doesn’t matter though because I didn’t and I’m not important anyways right? What do I do and how the hell am I suppose to deal? Should I just go ahead and kill myself?
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People who say that don’t understand the effects it has on you. Those individuals are angry and mean. I’ve said it to someone out of anger, and I’ve had it said to me as well. And you know what? Even if you did kill yourself, it wouldn’t matter to them in the grand scheme of things. Humans are mean, and when you’re outside their realm of things they give two shits about, they’re meaner. I deal with it by telling those people to go piss up a rope because they don’t matter to me either. And they can go kill themselves, because honestly, I wouldn’t miss them either.
Fuck ’em.
I don’t think killing yourself is necessary, just because someone requested it. Such a request was probably made out of insecurity on their part, or perhaps intimidation. If you stand out from the crowd, the simple minded will often be hostile toward you. It is often out of fear and sometimes out of jealousy and resentment of your freedom to be different. As you grow older, you will find that often, the high school jock marries the popular cheerleader, buys a decent home and becomes gainfully employed at a promising new company…and the outcast becomes his employer, marries someone of infinitely more magnitude, buys a fleet of fine homes and has the jock wash their collection of automobiles on the weekend.
I’m not saying it always works out that way, but I’m willing to make an assumption: The one who suggested you cancel your existence, does not seem as emotionally connected to his/herself, as you are. Probably because they are not. You probably are much more finely tuned to your emotions. I say this because if they were as connected as you, they wouldn’t say such things. With that in mind, know that while words may hurt you more than they hurt others, you will also experience many other emotions and feelings in your lifetime on a level much deeper than they could possibly imagine. Let them make their shallow insults…it’s pretty much all they’ve got.
Hey,
It’s hard sometimes when people tell you to go hurt yourself.
Im so sorry you feel that way. People do care on sp and you can always come here to rant.
Don’t take your life. Try to just hang out with people you care about.
If you ever need to talk, feel free to email me. I’ll try to understand as much as possible.
It’s brl.cents@gmail.com
Thanks,
Blindaudio