I’m so tired. . . Tired of crying, fighting, trying to find some will to live inside this black hole of mine. I simply cannot take anymore. I’m trapped inside a world of hate and I am their object of disgust. The only future left is just day after day of pain to be added to my past.
I have attempted nine times unsuccessfully. 5 od’s. Hanging. 2slit wrist attempts. And downing mr.clean. I have scars covering my arms, shoulder to wrists and my thighs and calves. *sigh* but even cutting, the only friend Ive had, has left me now. But this helium thing and carbon monoxide thing have piqued my interest. Perhaps rest for this black hole will come at last. Tips? Ideas? Anything?
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i would love to discuss this but unfortunately we’re not supposed to.
i also understand what you’re saying… i’m so tired of everything and i myself have attempted a few times, all obviously unsuccessfully.
Idk what to do…… Death just seems to be the elephant in the room. Its so obvious. I want this? Dont I? An escape? Peace? I HAD so many dreams for my life….. but thats all theyll ever be.
i feel that way too… i want out of everything and so far there only seems to be one way out… death.