I hate crying. Hate it to my core. When i cry, its usually silent sobs and gushing tears. I dont ever get a chance to cry out loud. If i do, then people would want to know why. I cant speak when i cry. I have no words just thoughts when i cry. They look at me like, “she’s phsycoticly disturbed” I agree in my head. RIGHT NOW I NEED TO CRY. JUST CRY MY EYES OUT. WHEN SOMEONE SEES I AM IN PAIN I TEND TO HIDE IT WITH A REALLY LAME EXCUSE LIKE I HAVE REALLY BAD TOOTHACHE OR I WATCHED TITANIC. I WANT TO CRY SO BAD. ALSO WHEN I CRY I CANNOT STOP I CONTINUE TO THINK OF ALL THE THINGS I DID WRONG AND THINK OF THE PEOPLE I GAVE UP ON. I AM ACTUALLY HOPELESS. AND OF COURSE WHINEY TO YOU.
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Dude. Cry. It’s ok. Trust me, it is. If you need to wail or whatever, do it into a pillow or something soft that will absorb your tears(and the snot that goes with it, unfortunately). Cry until you cannot cry anymore. Because then pretty much all of your stress will be gone from your body and you’ll be so calm you’ll sleep and be relaxed the next day. And yes, stress is literally leaving your body when you cry, because the stress hormones are going into your tears as you cry, which literally takes the stress away. And makes you feel really stuffed up, but that’s a given. But seriously. If you need to cry, go ahead. And if you need to ‘talk’ to people, there’s always SOMEONE here on SP. ok?
Just cry 🙂 At least you will feel better. It’s better than just hold your tears and put on a fake smile…