What I find is worse, is when you know you need to cry, but feel so indifferent, so numb, that you can’t muster a good sob.
Take a moment, and clear your mind. Just focus on the sensation of your heartbeat, and the air going in and out of your lungs. Don’t let the voice in your head speak (Fear Not.. everyone has one. One is healthy, any more and you might want to let someone know). Listen to the silence. And feel the very workings of your body.
Take that moment, and forget everything (anything else can wait a few minutes) and just be content in that very moment.
Take care.. You have worth. You have a chance for a bright future.
clearing my mind honestly seems all to difficult but i guess i can try:/ and oh i dont think that worse i HATE crying…I HATE it SO MUCH. i wiah i had no emotion at all…
Ugh… i hate the moods that don’t let me stop crying. Lately they’ve become less frequent… but way more intense. The last time i actually cried; not shed a tear because i was depressed or whatever; but flat out lost my mind to the sobbing was two weeks ago. I saw things that reminded me of sensitive topics, the voice inside my head was hostile, and I couldn’t hold back. Two hours of intense, almost insane sobbing, another hour of just fetal position and whimpering, three hours of staring into space with tears dripping down my cheeks, and then an hour of calming myself down to where I didn’t cry anymore.
I hate crying. I hate it so much. Because whenever I cry, whether it be from anything like a physical injury or whatever, it always gets worse for me because I remember that promise I made almost a year ago to someone very special that I wouldn’t cry anymore; then the tears would just keep coming. It seems near impossible to deal with while crying. It’s horrible. But it’s actually good for you because you’re releasing everything that you have inside you. Holding back for longer periods of time make the release even harder.
wow, thats intense..and sounds miserable….i hardly ever cry, but when i do its like 2or 3 hours with heavy breathing but trying to stay quiet..except today and yesterday i cried probably at every fucking chance…i hate it because i think of whats making me cry which only makes me cry more…..i understand its a release but i can be open abouthow i feel and wanna just start cryin as well but i dont cry i bottle that up for days and days to where i just burst at any given moment:/
Yeah, I know how ya feel on that. Bottling is pretty bad, especially if it’s for a long time. it makes you feel so much worse. Sometimes I’ll force myself to cry, just so I can vent a little bit to myself. I stand in the shower and just think of what makes me cry. So if I ever, ever, experience something like i did two weeks ago, it won’t be as intense and I won’t almost lose my mind to grief.
Hansens disease (the new name for Leprosy) is not primarily a “rotting” disease. Disfigurement is secondary. The primary symptom of leprosy is loss of nerve function. So you don’t know that you got a bug bite, and you can’t feel the swelling, and infection, so you contract gangreen, or other diseases, or rodents nibble on your appendages while you sleep, and you wake up missing toes. It’s gross yes, but it illustrates that pain is necessary. Pain tells us that our hand is burning on the stove, or that you need to call an ambulance because you just shattered your ankle.
Crying is a gift too… again, I sound loony, That’s okay.
You will naturally be move to tears when you have conflicted emotions. Not necessarily just Sadness, or loss. For example disbelief paired with happiness causes tears.
So this is your checks and balances. Evaluate the situation, log it out, organize it and, even if you can’t change the situation, come to understand it.
Maybe I’m way off base, Let me know if it makes sense.
@kyuketsuki: i can never force myself its to hard its why i bottle up then everything poors out with no other option
@childofabandom: yes that makes sense lol…idk cryingto me though makes me personally feel week
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What I find is worse, is when you know you need to cry, but feel so indifferent, so numb, that you can’t muster a good sob.
Take a moment, and clear your mind. Just focus on the sensation of your heartbeat, and the air going in and out of your lungs. Don’t let the voice in your head speak (Fear Not.. everyone has one. One is healthy, any more and you might want to let someone know). Listen to the silence. And feel the very workings of your body.
Take that moment, and forget everything (anything else can wait a few minutes) and just be content in that very moment.
Take care.. You have worth. You have a chance for a bright future.
clearing my mind honestly seems all to difficult but i guess i can try:/ and oh i dont think that worse i HATE crying…I HATE it SO MUCH. i wiah i had no emotion at all…
Ugh… i hate the moods that don’t let me stop crying. Lately they’ve become less frequent… but way more intense. The last time i actually cried; not shed a tear because i was depressed or whatever; but flat out lost my mind to the sobbing was two weeks ago. I saw things that reminded me of sensitive topics, the voice inside my head was hostile, and I couldn’t hold back. Two hours of intense, almost insane sobbing, another hour of just fetal position and whimpering, three hours of staring into space with tears dripping down my cheeks, and then an hour of calming myself down to where I didn’t cry anymore.
I hate crying. I hate it so much. Because whenever I cry, whether it be from anything like a physical injury or whatever, it always gets worse for me because I remember that promise I made almost a year ago to someone very special that I wouldn’t cry anymore; then the tears would just keep coming. It seems near impossible to deal with while crying. It’s horrible. But it’s actually good for you because you’re releasing everything that you have inside you. Holding back for longer periods of time make the release even harder.
wow, thats intense..and sounds miserable….i hardly ever cry, but when i do its like 2or 3 hours with heavy breathing but trying to stay quiet..except today and yesterday i cried probably at every fucking chance…i hate it because i think of whats making me cry which only makes me cry more…..i understand its a release but i can be open abouthow i feel and wanna just start cryin as well but i dont cry i bottle that up for days and days to where i just burst at any given moment:/
Yeah, I know how ya feel on that. Bottling is pretty bad, especially if it’s for a long time. it makes you feel so much worse. Sometimes I’ll force myself to cry, just so I can vent a little bit to myself. I stand in the shower and just think of what makes me cry. So if I ever, ever, experience something like i did two weeks ago, it won’t be as intense and I won’t almost lose my mind to grief.
Pain, though it hurts, is a gift.
I know. this sounds stupid but listen to this
Hansens disease (the new name for Leprosy) is not primarily a “rotting” disease. Disfigurement is secondary. The primary symptom of leprosy is loss of nerve function. So you don’t know that you got a bug bite, and you can’t feel the swelling, and infection, so you contract gangreen, or other diseases, or rodents nibble on your appendages while you sleep, and you wake up missing toes. It’s gross yes, but it illustrates that pain is necessary. Pain tells us that our hand is burning on the stove, or that you need to call an ambulance because you just shattered your ankle.
Crying is a gift too… again, I sound loony, That’s okay.
You will naturally be move to tears when you have conflicted emotions. Not necessarily just Sadness, or loss. For example disbelief paired with happiness causes tears.
So this is your checks and balances. Evaluate the situation, log it out, organize it and, even if you can’t change the situation, come to understand it.
Maybe I’m way off base, Let me know if it makes sense.
@kyuketsuki: i can never force myself its to hard its why i bottle up then everything poors out with no other option
@childofabandom: yes that makes sense lol…idk cryingto me though makes me personally feel week