I never thought I would actually think about suicide. I have loving friends and loving family. I am in college and I have everything I could ask for. Still, I can stop feeling depressed. My friends and family keep telling me how wonderful I am. They respect me and even look up to me. Still I never feel like it is enough. It doesn’t even cheer me up anymore. I keep thinking they are lying to me and I don’t believe it. I think about abandoning them and trying to start new but that will probably cause me to go into a deeper depression. I have told them how I feel and they just tell me I will get over it in time. Some just tell me to grow a pair and get over it. I don’t enjoy doing the things I used to do anymore. My birthday is next week and I dread the thought of being with my friends. I admit this all started over a girl. Before I met her I was strong as a rock but now i am not. She loves me as a friend but nothing more. Every time around this year she finds a new boyfriend and I am stuck feeling the same pain over and over. I feel like I want to let her go but that might cause me to loose my friends as well. I don’t feel like moving on even though I know I can. Ive turned to God but still feel ignored. How can I feel lonely when I have so many good people around me? I guess I need some good advise before I think about the S word.
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To get a girlfriend you have to act how you aren’t inside, you have to be everything they are not to attract them. That is the ultimate pain.
Look around and see how many humans there are out there. So many. Why be distressed over just one. Why limit yourself to having feelings for one single solitary human. Women, girls – there are so many: beautiful, sexy, smart, alluring, tasty, loving, wanting, sad, needing you. There are at least three out there that want to be with you. They want to talk with you and share their soul and beauty. At least three. At some point you will meet up so go back to being strong as a rock so they can find you.