Living proof

Being happy.. Is possible. No matter how far away from ending your life you are. Don’t believe me? Days ago I was in my room.. No one was home.. And it was raining. I sat on my bed, with my brain spinning with ideas of suicide. One came up that I could do.. Painless.. Simple.. Perfect. I got my supplies. As I sat on my bed minutes away from death so many thoughts were running through my head. My sister.. Prom.. College.. Teaching.. Having a wedding.. Children.. Friends.. Graduating.. And growing old. So many things I wanted to achieve before I left this life behind. I thought to myself, if I really want to be happy, I need to put my all into it. I need to make myself promises. I need to make myself happy. So I stopped thinking about dying. Pointless. I don’t really want to go I’m just going through tough emotions that can be cured. Key word is cured. Guys, it gets better. Don’t kill yourself because you believe you can’t make it, because you can. You need to believe in yourself so that you can be happy again. I know most of you hate this positive crap because I know I did a couple weeks ago. Make yourself some goals. Make life worth living. Get help. Life gets better guys.. So don’t give up.