I look at your twitter; the old tweets you tweeted.
I know Your favorite things.
From Your favorite baseball team, to Your favorite meal.
Babe Your voice, still it rings.
I know what You say
I know how You feel.
Boy there is no way that You and I can’t be
we’re so close to perfect for eachother..
Yes We had our problems..
but everytime We fixed it
Things got even better!
I know everything about You
Where You want to live, the name of Your first born son.
If only she knew
About the days that you almost ran.
Sweetheart, can’t You see?
You and I are meant to be.
The puppy You’ll get, the life you plan to leave.
You saved my life..
and I supported Yours..
Supported? Still do.
Babe, please, just trust me
I love you.
Fruit flavored gum, snowboarding, The Eagles, cuddling with Your puppy. The Redsocks. Homemade Chicken Permesean. Vermont. Tyler (I even know why you have chosen that name..) German Shepard-Husky mix..
And,
Being a wonderful father to Tyler and Ava, and the baby on the way.. Working all day and coming home to the kids and to your wife. Come home to dinner cooking and your wife drinking a glass of wine while listening to the radio. Two small children to tuck into bed; a wife to make love to late at night. You will be an amazing person.. father.. husband.. and friend.
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abselom – i just wanted you to know that i bookmarked this post. i know every word of it is extremely personal, and that these thoughts which you put out into the world are memories of your dreams and hopes.
each persons pain is unique, as is each persons joy. i won’t claim to know exactly how you feel, but my pain also stems from a love now broken. i have read a few of your other posts since this one, and i have felt that you and i are sharing a similar type of pain.
i do not know your story, but i know my own. love is a wretchedly wonderful thing, and i am sorry you are hurting from his absence. my life is completely empty without her, and the fact that she seems so much happier without me only makes everything that much more painful. i have been abandoned and replaced… and i miss her so much.
anyway, this is a beautiful post. and reading it makes me cry because it resonates so deeply with my own loneliness.
it makes me happy that someone enjoyed it.
not that i am happy for your pain! oh gosh no.. i wouldnt wish this pain on my worst enemy.. its too horrible.
if you ever feel like sharing some of your story, feel free to contact me on here, or you can ask for my email if your interested!
best of wishes.. and remember.. things cant always be as they appear