I am truly in love with the man i let go. I let him go because i felt like i knew i just didnt love him anymore. Two years of bliss and i let it all go. We fought a lot. He was a marine, 6 states away from me. We had an apt together where he never really was able to enjoy. He was supposed to come home to me and we were to have a future together but i let it all go. He told me i would regret it and at the time i was sure to let him go.
Ive been battling with major deppressive disorder for a while but never got diagnosed with it until i was checked into the hospital this summer. I was released and a month later i thought i was better. That was when i broke up with him in august. Now im back where i started sad and very alone. Shouldnt i have known this was going to happen? He is my world. The light in my heart. He took care of me and now without him i cant be sure that i will live on my own.
He does not want me back, its too late for him now. Everyday i wake up with him on my mind. How can i prove to him i am 100% certain that i love him? He loves me and still cares about me but not enough to call me his love again.
I will die if i do no have him soon and i am not being dramatic. He doesnt take me seriously. I am nothing without this man. I want to make him smile again i want to make his heart sing when i am with him. I want to see that light in his eye everytime he saw me. Now its just dark and that is what will kill me. I will die for his love. It hurts to love so much and not get the same back, karma worked its way into my soul.
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have you tried explaining to him that you did that because of depression/emotional stress in your heart? my girlfriend had thrown me out but she later said she was feeling very depressed and that she took a wrong decision under the stress. just try talking to him. explain to him how you were depressed. how you now realise that you took a wrong decision. how you now realise that you have hurt him badly. and ask him for a chance to make up for all that. i am sure he would consider all this since he loves you too. i sincerely wish your life the best.
sorry nh8907,
What I have to say is not going to be what you want to hear but that’s me, I’m assuming you have tried to get him backed and I didn’t work, so…….. I’m not going to tell you keep trying I’m going to tell you can find another guy probably closer to you and it will be a better relationship! You’re just going to have to tuff it out, you can do it, it happens all the time, be patient grasshopper.