She smiles and pretends that the world is okay.
But every time she comes home she thinks, is today the day?
The day when I’ll finally cry my last cry?
Is today the day when I’ll finally die?
Or maybe I should wait, a day or two to see how I feel.
To see if it’s just the blues, or if this is for real.
But it’s been five years, so it’s not just the blues.
I guess I’m just to scared to do what I have to do.
Or do I really want to die, I usually think so.
Or do I just want to run away from life, just run and go?
I wish I could just go to bed and never awaken.
I guess I have to be strong, and I can’t be shaken.
Somedays aren’t so bad, and other days are worse.
but it still seems like I’m wearing that fake smile, something I have to rehearse.
When people ask me whats how I’m doing, I reply “Good, and you?”
But all I want to say is, honey, if only you knew.
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Very beautiful, it resonates from the lives of countless people everywhere.
i love it. beautiful.
This is one of the most meaningful pieces of writing I have ever read. you have a lovely talent in writing my dear, and I envy you. You can portray the way you, and others like myself, are feeling with easily flowing words. Well done, and I hope things start to look up for you.
thank you so much it means a lot.
Thankyou. This spoke to my heart and soul. So beautiful yet sad. You have real talent. Don’t give up. You are worth something in this life. Thanks again.