This is me.
This is how I feel, how I am.
Yet, when I put this as my facebook pic nowhere close to halloween…
No one asked why.
No one understood.
In fact, I got a few likes..as if people would appreciate me dying.
Currently in pain from physically fighting my ex boyfriend yesterday. My whole body hurts and it’s kindve hard to breathe.
I sit here in pain and still cant help to think that emotional pain is so much worse. Like I’d rather cut my skin than experience more of this emotional hell. Now I dont know why I can sit here barely breathing and body racked with pain and still want to cut my skin.
Halfdead…not too long before I finish the job.
5 comments
Please hold back. Why are you trying to disfigure yourself? You won’t feel well / better that way. Please find ways to feel ok inside yourself. Can you take yourself to a hospital?
Please don’t give up Alicia. Maybe people thought that you were trying a different look when you put that pic up on facebook? I guess they didn’t realize that you actually feel ‘half-dead’ on the inside. Your ex-boyfriend shouldn’t be hurting you. If you are injured, you should go to the hospital and file a police report against him. He assaulted you.
If you died, it would be such a waste. You’re beautiful. You are probably capable of being something to others, and through that, of being something to yourself.
Oh…thank you. Means alot.
Yes, maybe…it’s possible that no one really noticed I was depressed after all this time. I’d sure like to think so. Yeah, well..I’m fine. Just a bit of pain and nothing i cant handle. I hate hospitals and I’d feel bad if i filed a report…