I spend a lot of time wishing I was someone else and I’ve wasted a lot of my life doing so. Sometimes I think of myself but a better version of myself, better looking, more talented, an ideal social and home life. Other times I daydream of myself as a completely different person; wether it’s a sociable gay male living in California or pretty blonde city girl living in London, UK. I constantly see people and think ‘I’d give anything to be you’.
I can’t stop and it scares me because it’s not healthy and I’m afraid that I’m always going to hate who I am.
I have tried to keep myself busy or focus on something else to forget about it and enjoy or appreciate myself and it does work (sometimes) but when I have free time or I’m alone or getting into bed at night or waking up first thing in the morning or even throughout the day, it’s all I think about.. I think about it to the point where I stop everything I’m doing and just think about living a different life.
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I don’t do that exactly but I do like to think about things/scenarios that aren’t real, that have nothing to do with me at all, so it’s like I can pretend I don’t exist… if it helps you cope with sucky things in life maybe it’s not the worst thing you could be doing?
sounds like you might be great in the theater buisness. Have you given that any though?