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kissnm10; You are so right! Anyone who throws out all those cliches about the suicide has never had to endure feeling so low that you would do anything for relief. And you are dead on (no pun intended) when you say how everyone cares about someone after they have done it. People always ask “what could I have done?” Well, the answer is simple… “Whatever it was you didn’t do!!!” I once heard someone say that for some people the world would never make sense and would never fit quite right. I believe this is a very unfortunately true statement. I’ve done battle with suicidal temptations moat of my life. The first time I remember wanting to end my own life was when I was 8. I’m 37 now. So many have asked me, “what does an 8 year old kid have to want to kill themselves over?” I don’t have an answer, accept that I can assure you that I did indeed want to though. I went through a few years where I had a reprieve from it, but it always finds its way back in my life. I will struggle with it until the day I die I guess, be it by suicide or natural means. I love this site because I see others like me here. Noone outside of this “realm of thinking” can understand the demons we wrestle with and battle against, day after day and year after year. It’s easy to talk about and criticise something that you don’t understand. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one out there that doesn’t “fit” in this world.