I know genreally pill overdoses fail and such but mine is well backed up my extensive research so its not a option. I know there is the chance i will end up in hostipal in agnosing pain as my liver will be completly destroyed after 200 pills of these kind but thats a risk im willing to take. Hanging was my go to for a long time but I just cant bare for my parents to hear “your daughters hung herself” its just too brutal exleast this way they will get to be by my bedside in hostipal. It pains me to be typing this […]
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Permanent Solution
I am sick of the bullshit that people say to me about suicide. All are invalid or just something they say because they dont know what to say.
“it gets better” – are you personally guaranteeing that? in reality it can also and more likely get WORSE
“someone loves you stay alive for them” – If suicide is selfish isn’t demanding someone to stay for you despite their pain and misery even more selfish?
“suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem” – unless of course the problem is permanent then the solution is perfect. I dont think a temporary solution for a permanent problem is very […]
That problem being life. Â Thoughts?
A lot of people say that Suicide is cowardly. I disagree. The one thing that is a constant source of apprehension and fear in humanity, is death. No one knows what happens when you die. Is there an after life? A heaven or a hell? Are we reborn? Or do we simply disappear?
Many of us are preoccupied with our own death and the preparations there of. We write Wills years in advance, we buy life insurance, we go to church and pray in hopes that through redemption we will obtain a better place in the afterlife that may or may not exist. We as […]
but soon. i’m ~30. this is a long time coming. it’s been in the back of my thoughts as long as anything else at this point. i guess it just got to be where i was impossibly tired of failing at getting better, not hurting people by being unstable, etc. i always felt too much of an obligation to my family/friends/significant others, or just got scared. the utter frustration of repeated failure eventually ground that fear down. it’s a relief! it’s the first thing that’s made sense in a long time. the only odd thing about it is the surreality of getting one’s affairs in […]
Why is it so hard for me to let people in? Why do I put on a mask and hide my emotions? I can almost feel a curtain come down, blocking my soul from whoever may be there.
I just don’t know what to do. I feel stuck,trapped oddly enough by my family. My husband has too much at work, and I don’t know how my kids would handle me having a second stay in the hospital in one year. That’s why the permanent solution keeps rolling around in my brain. Just be done with all of this. There’s a […]
I’m sick of all the bullshit cliches about suicide. “A permanent solution to a temporary problem.” Fuck that. If it’s such a temporary problem, then why is it so endless? This pain isn’t temporary. I’ll always be me. I’ll always fuck things up. I’m the problem, and the only way to solve anything is to end it all. I only wish I could see if anyone cares. That I could see how they react. It’s a fucking joke how everyone suddenly cares about you once you off yourself. Why should I stick around just because it might hurt a few people if I die? If […]
Hello.
Let me just start out by saying my life has been shitty since my teenage years. I started really feeling these types of feelings when I was 13. It was bad, really bad. My family life was not great and I had no social skills. I wasn’t abused, mistreated or any of the like. I just didn’t really develop those social skills you need to succeed in life. I started having these thoughts at 13 and it progressed as I got older and nothing really improved. There was something in the back of my mind which kept telling me things will get better, don’t give […]
Drastic Actions
I’d heard countless stories on the news about how kids my age had tragically taken their own lives. Nobody had ever noticed the warning signs they said, the parents thought that their sweet daughter was perfect, that she had no problems, when in reality she had more problems than most. I never understood why no one had ever noticed the signs or, if someone did, why they hadn’t cared enough to tell someone. I always thought that if I felt this way my family would notice; my friends would tell someone, my teachers would be worried about a change in my […]
For as long as I can remember, I’ve found myself unable to care or put forth effort for anything. I don’t pursue friendly or romantic relationships, and I don’t have any work ethic for academics or finding any sort of job. I’m a quick learner, so I’ve mostly been able to coast through high school on tests alone, though I’m currently at severe risk of needing to repeat my senior year next year. Due to my lackluster academic record and the fact that my family is barely above the poverty line, I have no prospects for college whatsoever.
The thought of suicide crosses my mind every […]
I think this is my very last post on this site. It’s been very helpful and I believe I’m done with feeling sad or letting what others think effect me. I am longer giving a fuck. And so as this is my final post I want to thank everyone who’s helped me who’s commented on my posts who’s encouraged me to keep moving. You guys are part of the reason I feel the need to get away from this site. I’m no longer suicidal. I’m no longer sad. I longer feel like dying. And I just want to say one thing: you guys don’t want […]
suicide is
a permanent solution
to a
temporary problem.
you should ask.
i could answer
make everyone laugh.
it’d be great if
i could make you think.
make you realize that
suicide
is real.
and people feel it.
and people do it.
and rational consideration-
‘how will this affect others?’
-doesn’t come into play.
because pain is
real.
pain can make us do
stupid things
if we’re not
strong enough.
stupid things
like acting on it.
it’s an intense need to
escape
coupled with a limited understanding
of what death is
of what death can do
how it can
damage
and not solve anything at all.
it’s when you feel
powerless
to change things
hopeless
pointless
futile.
you KNOW
people will be hurt
because you did it
but
it doesn’t matter then
it doesn’t register
because
staying alive to keep them reassured-
maintaining, so they won’t have to suffer
while you do…
it’s not […]
I once asked my friend what he thought about suicide.He told me “suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem”, he told me it was gutless and a cowardly thing to do.
I think it’s the bravest thing anybody could ever do. To end your life and welcome death and look him straight in the eye, i think it’s the bravest thing anybody could ever achieve.
I’ve thought about it, many times, I don’t think there is a person who hasn’t had the thought of ending it all cross their mind in their entire lifetime. I am new to this site but already it’s helping me, every time I look […]
It’s been said that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. I don’t see that as a deterrent, who wants a temporary solution to any problem? Solutions are good, permanent solutions are even better. Anyways, my life sucks. Life doesn’t suck, just mine. And there is no one to blame but me. I don’t care enough about anything. I am unmotivated to make my situation any better. I just don’t care. People sometimes tell me to search for that desire or goal or want to strive for, only I don’t want anything. I don’t even want to die, I just don’t want to live […]
There’s very few people who know me really well. However, those who do know that I am, in fact, a shitty person. Everything about me is shit. I am selfish, ungrateful, bitchy, rude, and anything else with a similar negative connotation. I am not a good person. The worst part is that sometimes I don’t even notice it. I’ve hurt the person I care about the most. I’ve failed them. I’ve also failed myself. What’s the point of living in this world when you’re not benefiting it? I’m not going to do any good for anyone, so why should I be here? I despise myself […]
For awhile now I’ve been “Ready to die” so to speak… I haven’t been able to think of a full proof way to end it yet but my mind is constantly thinking of new options, none of which will actually work. I have 2 in mind, but they are both extremely difficult to achieve, and 1 of them doesn’t have a very high probability of success.
I don’t think my depression is curable and ending it would be a permanent solution to a permanent problem. I can’t suffer the humiliation, shame, regret, loneliness, pain, and sadness any longer. I feel as if my very existence is […]
I have absolutely had it with this world. This society. The sheep that live around me. The doctors so greedy for money that they slap a label on me, without doing proper investigation, that follows me for the rest of my life. Let me elaborate a bit.
At 16 years old, I was having trouble coping with the pressures of adolescence and growing up in an abusive home. One day the pain became too much to bear and I broke down. I was taken to a mental hospital. (Of course a mental hospital. Because people in this day and age are too self-absorbed to HELP a […]
Sometimes I wish I was normal but that’s never going to happen. Life is supposed to get better but I doubt that. All I feel is numbness and it’s better than the pain I felt before. The only thing stopping me from going through with suicide is my best friends wouldn’t be able to handle my death well. My mom stopped caring about me a long time ago but my dad would go crazy without me with him. I refuse to live for myself, I only live for them, although I don’t care about myself, I care too much about others to put them through […]
This is first time I have ever posted on web about suicide, this is actually pretty cool. I will not go into all my problems, just to the point where as so many other times in my life, I question why am I living? I have lost really great jobs, decent marraige, etc. and now I feel alone. I also like many others here have seen countless therapists, doctors, been diagnosed with two different things by several doctors, bottom line – I am miserable, I hate where my life is, unfortunately I do not have the balls to commit suicide. I prayed even today several […]
I’m the problem and I am fucking permanent unless i kill myself!
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