After today broke down i know what i need to do … you are all lovely people thanks for listening
xoxo
goodbye 🙂
After today broke down i know what i need to do … you are all lovely people thanks for listening
xoxo
goodbye 🙂
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@sbkstep43 Come on, girl, don’t leave! Stay around! Please?! Pretty please?! 🙂
i fell weak i cant do it b4 my grandma bday
@sbkstep43 Please, love, don’t give up! 🙂 I know it’s hard but you can hold on! Stay around here! I didn’t even get to ask you… What country are you from? 🙂
jamaica
Don’t leave sbkstep43! Please stay with us here 🙂
@sbkstep43 😀 Is it hot in Jamaica now? Cause here it’s FREEZING! 😀 I’m from… Romania… 🙁 Ha ha! 😛
no promises but im trying to stay
@just.me.20 im always cold but i would believe so
🙁
@sbkstep43 Hmmm… I can’t wait for spring to come here sooner… I’m sick of the cold. (sigh) So… how was your day in the sunny Jamaica? 🙂
P.S. My name is Samuel, btw! 😀 Forgot to mention it… What’s your’s?
I go by Kris
and horrible
@sbkstep43 So… Kris… what happened today? Why r u sad?
broke down again and got worst….locked myself in the bathroom fell to the ground crying
@sbkstep43 (sigh) You remind me of myself… But why, Kris? Did you get in a fight with your parents? What really happened?
nothing just out of the blue i just i was bottling things up too much but i really dont know why
@sbkstep43 (sigh) It sucks when that happens… Did you get to talk to your girl today?
when i had locked myself up i was so sure i wasnt coming out alive the way i felt……i hit an all time low i cudnt pull myself together i laid in my pool of tears for a good hour
and no i tried to call her but no answer
@sbkstep43 Did you try anything? I mean… did you cut or took any pills?
was about to hang but never even had the strength to move after i fell
@sbkstep43 Don’t ever try hanging, love… It’s pure agony… I tried it once… and was minutes from dying…
@sbkstep43 But I’m still here… Alive and kicking! 😀
it cant be worst od and not having your stomach pumped but still alive
plus i can bear pain very well
@sbkstep43 I don’t know which one is worse… Haven’t tryed to od but I guess it hurts a lot too… Pretty much anything that’s damaging enough to kill you gotta hurt… except sudden, heavy damage to the brain… I don’t know… I guess I’m not thinking about any methods to die anymore… I’m looking for methods to improve my life… 🙂
my life cant be improved
@sbkstep43 Why not? Aren’t you still breathing? As long as you’re still alive you can do something to improve it… Besides, you’ve got people that love you, girl! 🙂 At least your fiancee… Why not fight for her?
im barely breathing properly and her love will keep me sane but i dont have her right now do i
@sbkstep43 I guess you don’t… 🙁
which explains the break down because i have no other outlet….she stop me from cutting and drinking
@just.me.20 Sam….sometimes i wonder if you are a recording -.-
I don’t think you should go.
im still here dear and much better than before
@sbkstep43 What do you mean… if I’m a recording? Hmmm?
@Kasa How are you today? 🙂
you ask the same questions to different people in the same context
@Kris You mean the fact that I talk to everyone about God?
not the fact that you do the context its always the same sam
@Kris “the context its always the same”… Well everyone here is upset about something… I may start the discussion in different ways but the end message is the same… that God will soon bring a change… for the better…
@Kris What are you thinking?
Radio silence, huh? (sigh) 🙁
sorry i fell asleep i have no problem with it sam it doesnt bother
goodbye
It’s ok, Kris… No problem…
Goodbye and… will hear from you soon?
maybe never
So you want to do it? I thought you had plans… helping others… (sigh)
i did but how can i help others if i cant help myself
feel like another attack coming my mood just fell low but my family is all there
I’m sorry, love… but you gotta fight through it… We all have each our own battle to fight… mostly with ourselves… And that’s where you should start… trying to understand yourself… your pain… your feelings… Your life is in your hands! The decision is only yours to make! But… if you need any help… I’m here for you… If you need me…
im too complex ugh i want to cry and cant im too weak i cant even kill myself im just suffering and it get worst each day
@Kris (sigh) I wish I could be there with you… to give you a hug to take a bit of the pain away… I’ll try anyway! *HUGS* Feeling better? 🙂
*cries in arms* no