These emotions,,, or lack of them, they are just as bad as physical pain. This boredom is horrible, adderalls doing the opposite of what it should be and i dont know why: i have no desire to do yoga, make cookies. talk to anybody or ill feel agitated and extremely anxious and robotic like(not fun) i am unable to genuinely laugh or smile or even sing without.
I want to feel joy for one, sweet lasting feelings of wellbeing, confidence, desire. 🙁
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We must for that which no work is required
Boredom can come from a lack of feeling and a lack of feeling from feeling everything.
Feeling everything we become numb.
Wanting to feel Joy is just that wanting. If we are always in the mode of looking and wanting we are never in the mode of being and experiencing, Joy requires being not measuring. In fact when we attempt to measure it, am I happy now?, am I experiencing Joy now?…. it disappears.
The tighter we hold the weaker our grip.
Hey,
If you ever want to talk to someone, please consider contacting someone, say at http://www.integralcounseling.org/ … I believe you can talk to people over the phone, possible over email, and if you don’t want to spend much money, they can certainly accomodate you. Or you can call the number on the side of the homepage — They’re there to help you, regardless of whether you’re suicidal or not.
I know it can be intimidating — But there are people who want to help you on the other end. If you ever need it, you just have to call … You have nothing to lose!