Don’t care about hope, will, or any other hopeful feeling. If u have the desire then u will do it. Despite what others think I’m done here. And here is my idea. With wolfs bane or monkshood mixed with belladonna and your favorite tea. How you decide to take it is your choice. Remember if you want it natural then be smart and make sure all evidence is destoryed. Pre make and then throw rest away. No letter but make sure you have the best day of your life. Do not be dramatic. Wash cup well or soak. I suggest put on dishwasher and turn on before going to bed! I want to suggest that before you commit this buy all stuff cash. Do not leave a paper trail. Buy from a city you are passing through. Do not buy emo music and make sure that your account on this site has been erased.
I’m done being the butt end of everyone’s joke. I helped everyone and been there. This is my way of helping myself
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I don’t get why people are concerned about evidence when they fully expect to be dead.
I think the best way to not be the â€butt end of everyone’s joke” is to survive your ordeal and live the life you want…
Okay fine, live thru it. That’s ur answer. How would u live thru it? Now don’t just say u separate yourself, or don’t listen to them, or whatever other easy quick way. If you don’t have an actual plan then don’t comment. I gave an answer to a problem of wanting quick, natural, without pain. Yes people still care butt if u r being put in a corner what do you do?
I had this idea of going to a state park where there are grizzlies and walking around in their territory. Till one eats you. But I wouldn’t want the grizzly to be put down. Or stand in a lightening storm while touching some kind of tall metal tower. An act of nature.
Someone earlier posted they wanted a natural way to go. There is my reply. When you put other ideas together, yeah there are tornados, lightening storms, etc. I personally don’t want to feel it. I just want to sleep. Don’t want to feel all the pain. But everyone has their own opinion. This was just my way.
I understand your frustration, I’m not in a very good place either. I guess your intent was to help a specific person go painlessly? Yeah, I get that.
My answer isn’t simply to live through it, as if to suffer with no end in sight. We often feel helpless when we do have some options.
@butterfly I hope you don’t actually plan on getting eaten by a bear.
There’s no guarantee your self preservation instincts won’t kick in and you end getting eaten alive, slowly D:
I personally don’t care about â€natural” looking end, but being surrounded by nature at that moment certainly appeals to me.
not appeased by your reply. frustration doesn’t even cover the feeling. made decision and carry thru is harder. being successful with my demise is all i want. i want to be able to fool even the medical examiner. i go the way i want on my own terms.
Ok, sorry izzeybel, I didn’t understand you were replying to someone else. And I don’t really want to die in a painful way either.
But won’t they find the poisons in the autopsy? Won’t they know?
knowing the balance of how much to use is key. if you know the properties you can use it without excess and enough to go undetected. and it also helps if you don’t leave a goodbye letter saying sorry.
Hm.
You’re not the only one who feels the way you do; frustration doesn’t begin to explain it, its just simply more convenient to use that word.
Of course you can go however you please, I wasn’t making a judgement.
May I ask why you want to fool everyone? Is it to protect them?
@butterfly, not everything will show up, especially if they don’t know what to look for.
Ah, I see. And yeah, the note would be kind of a giveaway!
despite the way everyone seems to view and treat me i do care about their feelings. so yes it is to protect them. they may see me as means to an end but i care enough to make sure that they are fine. unless i could restart my life somewhere else without having to deal with my family i would probably take it. but since that is not a possibility. im gonna do it the only way i know how without hurting them.
you are right, if they don’t know what they are looking for they can’t find the traces of specific herbs. you need to just take enough and make sure that it is not out in the open. be smart and get rid of it.
everyone has their own reasons. be smart, thats all im saying. i don’t want to hurt anyone. just remove myself from the equation. thats all.
But really izzybel, I’m really very sorry for your pain, and respect the way you want to handle things for the overall good of others.
That’s very endearing. I couldn’t care less what people think, that may make me an asshole :D.
Sometimes I play with idea of just disappearing somewhere tropical.. probably still not alive but the idea of no one knowing for sure what happened seems better for them. I guess I do care, just not much.
Be an asshole is fine. I just want to be happy on my own terms. Besides if you think about it, I get to set the terms.