It’s 5 PM and I figure I may as well go ahead and try to do something since the weather’s nice though something I’m struggling  is letting myself be OK which I feel I don’t deserve but I guess that’s just my depression talking and it’s hard to go and do something I like because at the back of my mind I’m like ” You’ll never be good at this, so why are you trying?” and it really makes me feel awful that I feel that way about myself but it’s true I’m not anything. I guess maybe I’m going  to do what I like as much as I can and try to not let my depression hold me back.

Thanks for listening even though nobody wants to listen to me complain and I hope if you’re having good weather on this memorial day you all have a good time