” Have you ever just laid in your bed and cried? Because you think you’re ugly, because you’re not good enough for anyone. You’ve counted your flaws from head to toe, making yourself feel worse. Cried because of all the comments that people blurt out actually hurt? Cried because your family is dysfunctional and never understands you. They tell you to stop complaining . That you have it so much better than the kids in Africa, even though they don’t understand your life either. You don’t want to feel like an attention seeker, so you bottle everything up? Around friends and family, you’ve created this lying smile and people believe it. But then at night, when you’re all alone in bed, the person who everyone thought was so happy, is crying their broken heart out.” When you said this, you had me in tears. and all I did was answer your questions saying ” yes,yes,yes… too many nights” the when you responded saying ” I hate it: I knew you felt everything I’ve ever felt before.. I just wish you knew how much I cared but your to scared  to get hurt again and I know I would never hurt you.
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i sat in bed for hours yesterday crying because i hated what looked back at me in the mirror i remembered all the times i went out with friends trying to avoid being looked at n i just felt so shitty then i cried myself to sleep saying it would all be better someday that everything would be fine i just dont no what to do with myself anymore