I don’t know what it is about Saturdays, but my fiance develops this overwhelming cruelty on those days and tonight. Last saturday I spent the night in our closet because he punched me in the nose and didn’t let me leave. Tonight I cowered in a corner while he yelled at me that I’m ugly, stupid, a shitty excuse for a girlfriend, that my attitude sucks, and that I need to apologize to his friends for acting so “embarrassing” tonight. I got upset over a video game we were playing. I admit that it’s childish but I didn’t throw things around the room, punch walls, or do half the shit that his friends do when they get upset over video games.
Now his friends refuse to speak to me and he yelled at me for the last 3 hours calling me all sorts of things. He used to love me so much. He used to cry when he so much as hurt my arm on accident. Now he hurts me and blames me for making him that mad.
I can’t take this. Nobody I have ever been with has ever loved me and I’ve been raped and abused a lot in my life. There is so many other reasons to just end it all tonight. I just am not sure how I want to go.
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Kick that piece of shit in the nuts till he passes out of till their the size of baseballs, which ever comes first. Then leave his sorry ass an find someone that will treat you right and give you the love you deserve. 🙂
makes me so angry when men hit women who cant do anything about it.. I grew up fighting grown men when I was just a kid cuz I grew up around abusers and child molesters. My boyfriend made the mistake of choking me till I was about to pass out and when I came to I stomped his ribs an he had to go to the emergency room with cracked ribs. I don’t go around abusing men lolz but if they hit me they get it back 100 times worse. If he is mean to u now he is prob nvr gona stop I wold find me someone beter cuz the love feeling does wear off
I want to leave him so bad, but I feel like nothing is going to get better and that I can’t make it on my own. I have a full time job but I am still on the 90 day probation period and I don’t want to start renting a home somewhere or an apartment and end up losing my job :,(
I believe you can make it, I think things can only get better when you leave people like that.
I have faith in you
sorry I k now what that feels like, I am afraid I cant make it on my own either on top of that I could nvr live alone anyway cuz I am afraid of the dark . do you have family you can stay with temp?
My two cents, first tell yourself NO ONE has the right to talk down to you or abuse you. Then tell him it’s over and that you won’t accept abuse from anyone. You have full-time job. There’s a good chance you’ll be motivated not to mess up during the probation period.
You and guy & his friends will be in your past but they will finally respect you when you respect yourself.
Another two cents, if you have time, consider joining a martial arts class –not to be Bruce Lee but they often teach self respect and respect for others. You already have my respect for posting!
^^ I mean “Your guy & his friends will be in your past…”
Go to a domestic violence shelter as soon as you can. They can help you get out and help you in other ways to stay out. If you don’t have one in your area then call the cops. I agree with the sentiments posted by others. He won’t stop. He has shown you his true colors, anger. You will never be able to fix him or save him no matter how sorry he is, what is will happen when you leave him. Emotional manipulation is one of the tools in his toolbox I am sure to get his way. After you are away from him and safe, then forgive him and move on. Life is too short to live in the choice you made but through choices we can find another future. End this relationship now while you have your teeth, literally and figuratively.
I want to find the courage to leave. I really do. I don’t think I can though. Thank you all for replying…
Honestly abusive men just want you to feel that you can’t make it. You need to leave him, sorry to say that. You might think life is hard now, but it’ll be much worse if you stay with him and you get hurt. It’s complicated but he’s not doing you any favours.
Ha ha ha he had to go to the e r with cracked ribs. I do the same thing. : )