I don’t know what it is about Saturdays, but my fiance develops this overwhelming cruelty on those days and tonight. Last saturday I spent the night in our closet because he punched me in the nose and didn’t let me leave. Tonight I cowered in a corner while he yelled at me that I’m ugly, stupid, a shitty excuse for a girlfriend, that my attitude sucks, and that I need to apologize to his friends for acting so “embarrassing” tonight. I got upset over a video game we were playing. I admit that it’s childish but I didn’t throw things around the room, punch walls, […]
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How do you people cope with lots of anxiety?
My living situation’s about to go all sorts of crazier starting Sunday and I don’t think I want to become an alcoholic, so I’m trying to avoid drinking at all right now.
I’ve been pondering this question since my time is near. Of course no one knows for certain, but I think a certain blogger had the most likely description.
Time existed before you were born, other people lived and died before you were born, and other people will be born after you are dead. One has no memory of anything before they were born (of course folks will claim to be someone in a past life, but people imagine all sorts of stuff). Before you were born will be like it is after you die. You won’t have any memories or consciousness that goes on. In other […]
Hello,
I’m glad I found this website, if only to vent and see that are other folks in same boat (not that I’m happy about that).
My Story
I’m a 48 year-old male. Been diabetic for about 20 years. I been somewhat suicidal starting in my teens. I grew up in a fucked-up white trash family. Mom is a religious freak with little or no employable skills. My father has all sorts of mental issues and was quite abusive growing up. I decided to move out of state when I was 21 but at the time I getting along OK with my parents. I wasn’t kicked out or […]
Hi, I suffer from Manic Depression . Not many in my school know that. They think i’m happy, maybe even normal teenage girl. I’m 14. But this is were it all started.
When I was little, I was always the “troubled” child. My parents would curse at me , call me a “retard” , “slut” “whore” all different types of names when I just was two years of age. It wasn’t only the names… my mom was a drunk and my dad wasn’t so much of a help either, she would hit me, with all sorts of things, whatever she could get her hands on. […]
My mind wanders all sorts of dark places. It’s like life is never going to change. The fear of death is only because your attached to something or someone. I have someone. I don’t fear death though. I learned that fear is just in your mind and it can go away. I can disappear and the world keeps spinning. My death will only define who I was. Although I want people to remember me as happy that would just be lying to themselves and that’s useless. I don’t really regret anything right now and I want to die in peace and I feel like this is the […]
Alright, I know this is more of a suicidal story site, but I was thinking and I almost attempted suicide, so I guess it sorta counts.
When I was about 3, my mom and my dad were constantly fighting. My mom was sleeping with other men, after she was married to my dad, to try to get rid of him. She apparently hated my dad, and wanted absolutely nothing to do with him. She was on several drugs, (and according to my grandmother so was my dad but before I was born) and she had all sorts of health problems, one night she even passed […]
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I’m a 16 year old guy.
My only friend is this girl in my 6th period class. We don’t really hang out, but we talk in school. So that’s a friend right? We talk at night over the phone about all sorts of stuff. Since I don’t even sleep at night I always have to hang up on her because she’s so stubborn and refuses to sleep until I do. But even though we talk about lots of deep, important stuff at night, we have never had to say anything like “Don’t tell anyone!” She just trusts me and I just trust her.
Sorry I should choose better words. […]
Dear Reader,
I will hang myself in a few minutes. I know it’s selfish and harmful to my family, friends and people I know. I know I can continue my life somehow but I feel depressed and anxious all the time. I don’t feel like I can function successfully in society for more than a few weeks or month. As shown by my failing in my 3rd first semester of university, despite getting good grades initially. Maybe staying home and relying on someone else for the rest of my life is an option for me, yet I can’t do that. It’s embarrassing and pathetic.
There are things […]
I discovered this site yesterday through Google or something, I can’t really remember. Immediately, I thought I should become a part of it, whether to just help myself or to help anyone who needs it.
I would really like an online friend or something. Just someone I could speak to about all the difficult times and the things I’m thinking or feeling, and they could do the same. I could tell them all these things and it wouldn’t matter too much because I wouldn’t have to see them in person and have awkward polite conversation.
I’m not the person to speak to if you wish to just […]
I just discovered this website and reading some of ya’ll’s posts called out to me and made me want to write stuff down. So why not do it for you people, someone who gets what im going through.
In less than 2 months I’ll be 22 years old. I’ve been thinking about suicide since i was 12. Depression and anxiety have been a part of my life since I was a baby. I remember being 4 or 5 years old, and feeling anxious and unsafe all the time. I grew up in a home where fighting, co-dependency, depression and hysteria was considered normal so I didn’t […]
So, being sick and tired of my life I decided to do something about it, or rather, try again. Not try to make it better but just to end it. After all, since there’s no meaningful purpose to my life I figured there wasn’t any point in prolonging the pain and suffering.
I had bought all I needed for “BBQ for one” (carbon monoxide poisoning) and went to the outhouse to prepare.
Here I fired up under the charcoal and had it be nice and glowing to emit maximum nice and deadly CO.
I had the coal in a chimney starter and was standing outside […]
The recession destroyed life as I new it. Having been laid off 3 times in 2 years, I left my home and started over in a new town. The first 10 months were a struggle to survive, and then it finally paid off. I landed my dream job. Still alone in this new place 800 miles from friends and family, I made the mistake of befriending a female co-worker. She approached me a couple of weeks after we both started working at the same company. She had moved to the same town with a boyfriend of 7 years and they had broken up. She was […]
i havent wrote here in a while, things been going great for a long time, and graduation is saturday. but today, somebody made me ready for death. Somebody wanted to make me kill myself today, like no other. Somebody bullied me like i’ve never been bullied before. She humilated me. She took a picture of my hair and said “your hair should not look like this” and posted it on twitter. i have never been so hurt in my life, i’ve been called ugly, and all sorts of names, but this is just horrible. Saturday after graduation, im killing myself.
i dont want to be here anymore
i dont know what going on my lifes so messed up. everything went wrong when i was taken from my mother at the age of 11 i had to move to my dads because social services said my mum emotionally and mentaly abused us i was a good kid i looked after my younger sibling while my older brother and sister took drugs with my mum so when we was taken i was relieved in a way but my whole life changed from there. i have 4 sisters and 1 brother we all got seperated and we had supervised […]
Everything about me, all that is, is just a big metaphor =]Â
Because I am a Loony, So damn Loony! I got engulfed in the dark flames that got created within my life. And I love it!
I will never die, I WILL NEVER DIE! I post on here often about me dying, it is a metaphor! I die, very often, almost everyday, everytime I see that damn face, and that damn picture on the wall, I DIE. But I will never die!
I hate HATE, so that makes me a hypocrite, I hate LOVE but love LOVE. I Hate Anger but Love it! I am just all […]
I don’t know. Humans just suck. Pollution. Genocide. Homicide. Racism. Bullying. It’s all so stupid. We’re destroying our beautiful planet and paving forests over and trophy hunting and all sorts of unnecessary shit. We take more than we give. I just hate being human, hate being a judgmental naked stupid ape trapped in this concrete hell of so called civilization. So ironic that the least humane of all creatures is the human. All I want is to be free from the burden of this stupid life. My Grandfather had the right idea in killing himself. Why can’t I find the courage that he had?
Ive been thinking alot about all sorts of things. Uhm I just don’t know what to do I honestly can say though taking my life doesn’t seem right at all someone made me relize that sure I’m still going to struggle through this and using these small things to numb the pain but one decision has been mad that I’m not going to take my own life if anything I’m just going to let what ever happens on it’s own and maybe I do need help but that will be decided at a different time I havnt even taken a hit of dope today even […]
Tomorrow is the day. I will swallow a few pills all in once. I hope my heart stops beating.
I am sick and that’s what i am. I am a sick fuck. Who isn’t able to do shit. I have no social life, no education, just nothing that is needed to have a stable life. I am a worthless piece of shit and when i die, i will suffer even more because hell is my destiny.
I have one question though, what does efexor 75mg does with your body when you overdose on them? These are anti-depressant pills.
Goodbye.
Thank you for the replies sent to me to tell you a bit more about me i will,
when i was 4 years old I was hit by a car the driver worked for the goverment and he was driving drunk when he hit me with his car i went 20 feet at the time in the air came down hard on my head this kept me in hospital for 6 months with stuff all over my head then when Iwas 6 years old i had to share a bed with one of my uncles while in the bed with him I was made to […]
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