I’ve  been out of work for almost a  year.  Not for lack of trying either.  I finally got an offer but it’s only an entry level position that pays $10 an hour and isn’t even full time.  The good news is I’ll be able to pay rent.  The bad news is, I won’t be able to afford to feed myself or keep my car running.
I have more than 10 years of experience. Â All the effort I’ve put into trying to building my career and this is the best I can do. Â I’m a fucking joke.
It’s not just the career either. Â I haven’t had a relationship in even longer than I haven’t had a job. Â I have no family, at least not any meaningful family. Â I’m having trouble coming up with reasons to keep trying.
I don’t know how I’m gonna do it yet. Â But it’s time to put an end to it all.
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I understand totally how you feel. I also have experience but couldn’t get a second job into the career that I want as well. I totally can feel how you are feeling. It is like what the fuck for all the efforts that you have put into something. I wish I could help but I can’t, and I hope this little comment can at least provide some console for you, that in this world, there is someone who is going through the same problem as you. Actually I am a little worse. I never been in a relationship before. Which is a big joke itself as well. Hence yes i agree it is time to put an end to it. Are you looking for suicide buddy?
You are not a joke. You just need to focus yourself, take deep breaths, and keep trying your best. Don’t give up, you are making progress. Life isn’t over for you yet, so keep fighting. One day you will look back and see that it was all worth the struggle in the end. Keep your head up.
Well, that sucks, man. No question but do you have your health???
That would be something. If so, pick up and move to another place with more jobs available.
Jasxteo: I don’t have that many buddies. So hey, why not a suicide buddy? I’ll email u later.
Thinkimready: do I have my health? My physical health yes. My mental health… Well I’m planning my suicide so u figure it out. And in a year long job search do you seriously think I haven’t explored relocating?
It’s the economy and it really sucks :-\
Well as for being out of work I know how that feels but as far as looking? I just don’t give a flying fuck anymore….fuck it…. I am sick and very tired of not being able to sustain employment and when I did find it I wasn’t able to do a satisfactory job due to my own inability to focus on the job. I hate wages anyway because really each year you make the same in terms of pay but really you are getting a pay cut. Inflation means the dollar you made last year is worth more than the one you did this year and you don’t see a fucking wage increase insight. I think they raised min wage but if you are making just a little above that then that means your wage is closer and closer to becoming min wage and in a few years I doubt any adult will be able to afford to save money let alone food, gas, bills, housing, clothing, health care, car insurance, rent, entertainment, emergency funds, taxes etc on minimum wage. It makes it worse because you have 10 fucking years of experience and still couldn’t get a decent job man what the fuck. I hate how everything is today its horrible. I’m sorry you had to go through this but whatever you decide to do I hope you find peace