just wondering – for how long has it been since you guys felt in any way in control of your emotions? because i am definitely not anymore. just crying randomly/in public or happy for no reason at other moments….
in other news, someone told me not to kill myself today. obviously completely unaware of what these words meant to me, but still slightly amusing nonetheless
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It’s been a couple of years (like 4) since i realized i wasn’t able to control them for small portions of the day, mostly on evenings. I just got incredibly sad no matter what i was doing.
Wow that person is an ass. If someone said that to me I would ask them “what’s wrong with you? Words kill don’t cha know?†I was able to control my emotions until recently. Being alone and overthinking has royally screwed me over. Isn’t there a point where you just stop crying and feel numb? I think I’m getting there. If I were you I would try to keep busy or talk to people because that sort of helps me.
they told me not to! besides, it was just in response to me being a klutz. but yeah… it still struck me. i feel ya w/ that being alone/overthinking… that is basically my life in a nutshell. about the numbness – there’s this thing i do when i experience any sort of trauma, which is completely block out any possible emotion. even if i’m not exactly denying the experience (i.e. i know what is going on and why), my brain just can’t seem to comprehend how i should feel about that, so i don’t feel anything. however…… it all comes back later. and i think that is happening to me now. the problem is, i am so out of control as to how fast all these emotions come rushing back and don’t know how much longer i can put up w/ this. anyway thanks for the advice, i am plenty busy, and talk to people everyday. so don’t worry. i just wanted to know in general how other ppl feel on this site
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