Here I am lying in bed, the worst thing to do when your depressed. I’m 13… I cry inside everyday. two weeks ago we had our winter/Christmas break. Over the holidays I was planning on relaxing and enjoying my break without any homework. It’s really hard for me to continue this blog but I feel like if just one person might be able to relate to my crazy messed up situation at least i can help someone in my last 24 hours of life. Anyways back to point, a few weeks ago during break my parents got in the car to go to work and i was out ice skating when it happened. I’ve never said it out loud and I don’t think I ever will. My parents died that day…… I don’t know if I can continue writing it’s just so hard to breathe everyday. I’m not allowed to go to school because it’s all so sudden so I’m living with my grandparents, the worst part is I have no one anymore my brother died of cancer two years ago. It’s hard for me to look at myself anymore i don’t believe that I’m living anymore. I’m just dead inside there’s nothing left for me. I….I just don’t understand how people can continue life like this. Humans aren’t supposed to have that much sadness right??? Xxx 23 hours until it’s over
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Yes I agree humans are not supposed tohave this much sadness….your parents never would want this for you. But I understand how you feel.
I’m very sorry for your loss and for how you’re feeling. I’m only 14… Almost 15. I honestly can say you have it way worse than me, but at least your parents loved you and you had a “family”. It will be okay just wait it out. Sometimes… Shit happens. Unfortunately it sucks and you just can’t take much more. You have to remember it will be one HELL of a fucking roller coaster, but in the end it may be bad or good, either way it’s always a new, bright, happy beginning. So please, think about your attempt in the next 20 or so hours. It can get better sooner or later. Hang in there. I’m here for you if needed. Good luck…
You are understandably making a very emotional decision to end your life. But logically it makes no sense. The truth is that we don’t know what happens when we die…well most of us don’t anyway. I feel your pain…but don’t give in to it. If you are still here…you were meant to be here…otherwise you would have been with your parents.
Their “JOB” was to give you life. Please take some time to make this decision. What is another day…or another week…after all you have SURVIVED.
I have not personally experienced your pain…I have my own…but my father would have understood. He was away at Scout Camp when his mother died…and he suffered from severe PTSD almost the rest of his life from this trauma. In the end…he did get help and counselling…but quite near the end. He actually en”joy”ed the few remaining years he had left…and did a lot of work for others. Don’t follow his example…get help NOW. Don’t waste your life…and don’t end it. Your Light was put on this Earth for a reason.
If I were anywhere near you…I would hold you while you cry. I would probably adopt you. You should know that I am an old woman and not some creepy boy.
Sending you Sincere Condolences
Be Brave…and ask for Help
Love and Light
Ama
Dear raynstokergoodbye,
That is a very disheartening experience. The way you choose to end your life over it is even more so. Your parents obviously loved you very much and showed you how life should be. Let your parents and the lessons of life live through you. it will be tough for some time. However, there is a community of caring and loving people out here to help support you! Tell the world of your pain through your words not through suicide. We are here for you!