mixed emotions, all i need is support

so I am 5 weeks pregnant, and anyone who has followed my posts know what a big deal it is for me to  have a baby, back in 2012 i had a miscarriage at 10 weeks and that tore me appart. I nearly killed myself. Now i have a chance to be a mother again, my boyfriend and I even planned this baby, but he also knows i am at high risk pregnancy loss  and i suffer with cronic anxiety. I also have a tilted uterus too witch is harder for me to carry a child. . as i said before people whom have follow my posts know the great depression i have been going threw latley.. 3 of my close friends passed away within a week apart, My ex, a friend i known since i was 12 and my uncle passed away and i wasnt able to attend any of their funerals .. i have also been sick , lost my voice and very weak.. my boyfriends family saying negitive thibgs about me , and just drama that I’ve been trying to ignore……

I had my first sonogram done about a week ago, and they found my baby. My first ultrasound they couldnt see anything besides the sack and they thought i have having a tubal pregnancy THANK GOD they found the baby a week later, hormons going up and its where its supposed to be BUT they have been keeping a real close eye on me because of the risk. Well the other day i had a dream about me loosing my baby, i woke up crying, it felt so real … i woke up today and found blood.. i was rushed to the hospital and they didnt really do much but a pelvic exam and they said my uterus has NOT collapsed and aalso that i dont have much blood witch is a GOOD sign, and they also did another blood Hormon test and said when i first came 2 weekss prior that my hormons where 5,000 and now im at 21,000 witch is also a good sign.. but im still scared and i need support. My anxiety has been at its peek and im scared. My boyfriend was able to take this day off but he wanted to go back for 4 hours when i need him here the most.. i dont care he goes to work BUT with my circumstances he DONT CARE.. he is able to make up the hours on saturday but he refuses?? Like seriously?? After everything hes put me threw??? i need support and not stress especially not right now when even the doctors couldnt say much… i need you  and your not their… why??