Does anyone else ever put themselves in risky situations in hopes that they might be killed? Like walking at night hoping to get ran over or stabbed, or going hiking in an unknown area and you’re inexperienced, driving in bad weather, or do some extreme sport or activity. Anything that puts you at risk, because you feel like it would be better to get in an “accident” instead of committing suicide, which has so much stigma attached to it.
I do this, I find myself not caring if something happens to me. A lot of times IÂ hope something happens to me.
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I have walked super slow at crosswalks at a red light with cars approaching fast; those times I have been extremely devastated. I have thought of flying to a beach and drowning, and it would look like an accident because I don’t swim very well at all. I have thought of going into the woods, digging a ditch, and shooting myself in the head and never be found, so it would be a missing person instead of a suicide. But when it comes to the final end, I don’t think it will be that elaborate, it will just be suicide.
I wouldn’t mind to die in an accident or end up missing
I walked into a -40 blizzard at night one time, I was under dressed and not really sure of what I was trying to accomplish but I couldn’t feel any exposed part of my body because it was so cold
A man then called out to me and asked me to help push his vehicle that got stuck
I felt bad and helped him out, we couldn’t get it to budge so he offered to let me warm up in his car and I was beyond freezing so I accepted
He offered me a cigarette, I’ve never smoked a day in my life but I thought why the hell not
As expected I didn’t like it but I was cold and had the impression that it was helping me warm up so I smoked it until it was too small to smoke
I eventually got feeling back in my hands and feet and he called his father to come pick him up since we couldn’t get his car out
He even got him to drop me off at my house
I was exhausted and went to bed as soon as I got home but I did feel better that there are some nice people out there
Kind of off topic I guess but yes there have been a few times where I tried to put myself in risky situations but they usually never amount to anything in the end
This reminds me of something a character said in a Stephen King book. I believe it was Dreamcatcher. Something like “that’s one of the few perks of being suicidal, you don’t sweat the small stuff”.
I knew someone who used the suicide by cop method. Now that’s desperation.
Yes definitely I always wish somebody would just hit me with their car already! I will go out in lightening storms but I’ve never got lucky
Yes. I chased after a shoplifter the other night. I think I craved the excitement/attention/danger. But when he wanted to fight me I actually backed off. So apparently I thought better of it 😀