I start out each day
All brand new
With a smile on my face
And my head held high
I socialize
I laugh at jokes
And I even give advice
But somehow my day
Always ends with a wet face.
I don’t know how to control it.
It keeps creeping right on back
It’s like a tickle in my throat
It keeps pestering me
Until the attention is given.
I don’t know how to deal with this nonsense
I think I may go insane
I just need to find some closure
Or just a way to cope
I need someone to help me through this
And end this for the last time
Seeing these scars everyday
Makes it harder and harder
I wonder if I will ever be whole again
But most of all
I wonder how easy it is
To see through my mask
Is it as clear as day?
Or is it fooling you?
Of course you finding out
Is not my plan either
You would certainly hate me
Or lock me up in a cell
I could never live with myself
If either one was to happen
But maybe I do deserve to be hated
Or to live behind bars
I am clearly not okay
Its okay to agree
Maybe I do deserve to die
I am just a burden to you all
The world would be a better place
Without me around
I’m so tired of faking
Acting like everything is fine
So I am giving up
I am handing in the towel
I am taking flight
Into the sky I go
My new home is in the clouds
Where I will finally be happy
And shine in the night sky
*No grammar sorry….*
4 comments
Oh I must say it is PERFECT !but I know you will laugh at me but you will no more be alone if you believe in God and that he loves you as much as that he never left you and never will leave you alone but he is waiting for you to remember him.
Keep crying while you still can because some people can’t even if they wanted to.
Wow, how beautifully written!!!!
Do you have other poems you might want to share?
I’m not much of a writer. I just started doing this recently. I will post more as soon as they are finished. 🙂