I live in a small town, less than 1400 people. I have no girlfriend and there aren’t many (about three) girls at school who might consider me out of sheer pity, but they all have boyfriends. But if they didn’t why would they want me anyway. They are all pretty and I am a pathetic ugly little monster. I have no opportunity to make things better. I guess I have to wait 2 1/2 more years until college, but things would be uncertain there too. I doubt I’ll even have the strength to continue that long. I’ve been waiting for happiness since I was born, I don’t think I can continue that much longer. Usually I sit here and talk to my imaginary girlfriend Allison, but usually I slip out of it and start yelling at myself about how pathetic I am. I just wish I could have some kind of reassurance that a girl might love me one day so we could start a family. A happy, loving family unlike the one I have now. Whatever, fuck everything.
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Looks arent everything and having a girlfriend wont just fix everything. How old are you? if you really wanna meet someone maybe you could try dating sites?
don’t call yourself ugly! I think that confidence is nr 1, if you’re confident girls find you beautiful at first sight. And it’s also important how you treat a girl (if you’re nice to her, if you’re a gentlemen and not a selfish jerk, if you’re always there for her). And another thing, if there are things about your which you think are not so beautiful, you can change it soooo easily! Like your hair, your clothes, and again, the main thing is attitude, how you stand (always stand straight) , how you walk (walk confident) and that kind of stuff.
and do you know who hasn’t an opportunity? children in africa, dying from hunger, and people in other third world countries. If you finish your school, you can go studying whatever you want and like, you have opportunities other people never had and you can be so succesfull!