“When I walk into a room, even filled with people who hate me, I feel like I’m cumming. Not the orgasm, but the satisfaction that comes with it. That’s how I want to help pothers feel, because it allows you to be unbreakable. And as much as you may think you’re already there, you’re not.”
“And as much as you may think you’re already there, you’re not.”
I’m sorry if I put out the vibe that I think I’m superior or that I get off on attention, because that’s nothing like the way I feel. Every time I walk into school feeling confident, I should remind myself that by the end of the day, I am going to feel broken and depressed.
Every time someone looks at me, I immediately look down. I am afraid of most of them. Every time I so much as brush against someone in the hallway, I am filled with nausea and I just want to get out.
Every time I’m in an assembly, I’m sitting in the highest corner of the bleachers so people don’t bump into me to find a seat. Every time I have to move out of someone’s way on the way when I’m walking through the parking lot, I feel shaky and nervous.
So I’m sorry if I come off having hubris, that’s just my fear trying to hide itself.
tl;dr: I have anxiety.
Also, I’ve never shown you all what I look like, so…
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Dat feel when “mentally creaming my pants and grinning like an idiot when I walk into a room”. That’s a classic of mine, used it all the time when I started my first job at this mail centre by the airport. Especially helpful when disciplinary action was taken against me. I’d just imagine having an enormous rage squirt the whole time I was being disciplined.
Hey, whatever let’s you carry about your daily, so be it. We all have our little ways of coping/carrying on, so why not? I once wore a netball skirt whilst doing a camp back in school, and played rugby wearing it; never had I felt so O for Orsome. That’s how I killed my social anxiety anyway, now I don’t give two hoots so…meh.
Your picture is fine, it’s brave of you to share it with us. Thank you. Enjoy your day ahead…and try not to sneeze eight times in a row.
Psh, we all wear masks and build walls. Anybody on here who says they don’t get it is fucking lying.
@Shephard, I don’t want to break either rules 1 or 2, but are you a /b/rother?