Hey everyone..I haven’t posted in a while..So yeah..I found out along with my severe depression and anxiety..I’m bipolar and they can’t even diagnose what stage because of how fast my mood changes. Plus I am on the boarder line of having a personality disorder like split personalities. So I am on mood stabilizers and anxiety meds..I guess they kinda help, they just make me really sleepy is all I know..I also found out that I’m pretty much disabled from having all my problems with my mind and my nerves and all this other stuff so that is just great, I found that out today..I also tried to tell my mama that I am bisexual by just asking questions and she said “I will pray for you” she wouldn’t accept it..She wouldn’t kick me out if I told her but she wouldn’t accept it. I still have my thoughts about cutting and suicide but they are less now..I haven’t cut/stabbed myself in over a month so that’s good but I feel as if I’m slowly drifting away from everything and everyone I care about..i meant I barely leave my room anymore..I barely see my friends at school (Who I’m loosing most of cause I’m a 10th grader and they are seniors}…I’m only fifteen and I have felt this way since I was seven. And as E.A.P said “I become insane with long intervals of horrible sanity” (E.A.P is Edgar Allen Poe} I also feel as if my family..If I ever told them how I really feel or that I’m bi they would be like “put her in the mental house” “get her baptized” “GET THE HOLY WATER AS WE PRAY FOR HER” fuck man..I’m scared I really am