In 1995, I attempted to take my own life by, of course, blowing my brains out! If I had known then, what I know now, would I have done it? The answer is yes and no. Yes, because it forced me to get help and to change my life. No, because I am partially paralyzed on my left side and never will know if my life really would have gotten better if I could have just hung on a little longer.Â
16 years later, I am sufferig from some small amount of PTSD over the event and now am having to deal with it all over again on a new level. Hopefully this will be the last time I have to chew on this puppy.
Recently I wrote this poem and made a video of my story. It is on You Tube. I hope it will encourage you to wait, pray and see what God has in store for you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HLk8W8Kznc
Thanks for watching.
3 comments
This is why I’m doing heavy research to make sure that whatever method I choose is almost fool-proof. I don’t want a failed suicide (again) and end up worse than before. It’s bad enough our lives are unlivable, but then to have a failed suicide that leaves life even worse? That’s proof that either God hates us or just doesn’t care.
You must have put it to the side of your head.
i have a good friend thats half paralyzed