Does anyone ever feel like the only enemy they ever have to worry about is themselves? Like seriously.. The mirror is the only real opponent. You stare at yourself in it, and then you just pick out all your flaws. Sometimes, on a good day, you can see some good things but other days all you can see is the things you hate the most about yourself and you wish that change were possible.. Of course then changing you’d hate the person you became then..
Ever feel like your mind is trying to kill you? Like you just hate yourself and everything about yourself? Like you’re trying to kill yourself from the inside but you need outside help? And like if you try to help people you care about, you just fumble over your words, like you don’t deserve them. And you just keep losing friends.. It just hurts.. A lot…
I tried committing suicide almost a year ago.. I was just tired.
Tired of trying, of breathing, of living.
I still get feelings like I might just try again..
The only thing really holding me back from ending it all is the connections I have. People that need me..
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Hello
I have felt it too that days I was so sad and afraid about that maybe I will become sth so bad someone like that person who revenges me and I was so aimless I thought about everything and anything you can imagine even suicide or running away to somewhere but I had no money and sth ( not fear but sth else) didn’t let me kill myself then I started to ask anyone that I knew and I didn’t know about their reason for life and I met someone who gives me a reason.I am not perfect or so happy sometimes sth make me sad sometimes so disappointed and… but I believe in God because when I ask for help just he hear me and I ask for a friend ,a teacher and gave me .
ask him and I’m sure if that you want be good he will give it to you if nobody knows your answer he will answer you in the best way.he is so merciful and so kind .
I feel you.