About a month ago I OD’d on heroin and wound up in the hospital. Ever since I’ve been getting what I think are panic attacks, where I feel like I can’t breathe and that I’m about to suffocate. Even in A&E the psychologist didn’t take me seriously but I am seriously messed up… I’ve been waiting 2 months to see a psychiatrist after stating I was suicidal because she cancels the appointments but I can’t sleep for days, I have auditory hallucinations (hear people say things about me when they’re not), extreme paranoia and I’m afraid to leave the house. If that ***** has the audacity to tell me I don’t have a chemical imbalance again and it’s a “personality” disorder she’d better hope she’s still breathing by the time to cops come. I told them which drugs agree with me and instead they gave me ones which made things worse. Willfully negligent motherfuckers…
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The not sleeping for days is most likely increasing the auditory hallucinations and the extreme paranoia you mention. I had some of those “episodes” (and so did someone i knew) several years ago, just due to sleep deprivation (even without taking meds or drugs). And yup, what you describe sounds like something resembling a panic attack. Hopefully they’ll adjust your meds, if they don’t (and you are even telling them the pills that do work on you, lol) maybe you are better off looking for another psychiatrist.
You’re right man, I find that sleep is the most important thing when it comes to mental health (at least for me it is). Fortunately I got a different psychiatrist today and they’ve labelled me with Borderline Personality Disorder, which to me is just a catch-all term for someone with severe emotional and mental health problems which they can’t or are unwilling to treat. But hey, they gave me the right smarties this time (effexor 75mg and seroquel 25mg) so I let them live 😛
Great 🙂 so you won’t go to jail for killing your psychiatrist, lol. Hope that dose works for you. I have all the symptoms for borderline as well and the causes seems to fit with what i’ve gone through (and the last time i went to a psychiatrist it was also suggested but not confirmed so i assume it’s pretty much that, plus ptsd which was confirmed), and sleep is one of the few things that has really helps/breaks me the most in my case.
Not that sleeping “fixes” me, but at least it gives me a bit more of (much needed) stability. I’ve avoided meds for a while (since last ones really messed me up) but maybe i’ll give it another shot eventually.
it makes me sick how society has treated you. And please get a new psychiatrist
please try and stop that… ODing etc. You could end up in a state where you are in even worse pain and be unable to suicide. Not that i want you to die… I never encourage it but at the end of the day that should be up to the person. I am very sorry for what you are going through.