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the house

How should I tell parents I’m moving in with my friend?

by Zephyr 4/9/2017

written by Zephyr

It’s been awhile since my last post. Damn, I was.. 16? I’m 18 now and things aren’t looking quite as bright. I’m more mature, yes, but.. My grandfather died an awful death. Stage 4 cancer. I got to watch him suffer, scream and plead for death then die. My Grandmother also has stage 4 and my OTHER grandmother just was diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer. My two great-uncles passed away, along with a great aunt.. Plus my dog, Charm, and my Cat, Jarro also passed away..

(The fuck is with all this death?)

This has my my family go even more batshit crazy, and, in […]

4/9/2017 4 comments

I don’t know what I want anymore

by Tummibear 11/6/2016

written by Tummibear

I’m just going to put this here for me to re-read when I’m at a low point. Kind of as a public time-capsule. Bear with me as it’s going to be a lot about I-Me-My.

I was born to a single mom with a lot of personal issues. She was a pretty promiscuous party girl during my early childhood. She dated, and we lived with a few
different drug dealers before I was even 3, not that I minded at that age. I temporarily lived with my grandma for a year from 3 to 4. I don’t have any memory of
this but apparently, according to […]

11/6/2016 7 comments

fRIENDS?

by CARLOSPEJUAN 7/13/2016

written by CARLOSPEJUAN

Everyone around me, who calls themselves my friend never feels like they are being true. I always doubt the verity of such a word and thus i save them for those who truly earn it. I always fear the people who smile at you face and stab you in the back. I do not believe that someone who is that easily persuaded against my will regardless of how petty this may be, someone who will insult me and side easily with someone who I JUST literally JUST like five seconds ago introduced them to. Or the most painful recent experience. Some fucktard whose name was […]

7/13/2016 0 comment

I don’t want to live anymore

by skysie 5/25/2016

written by skysie

I guess I should start from the beginning. I am 17 almost 18 and have a brother who is 16 and a sister who is 20. My life sucks is complicated and somewhat confusing at times.

I was adopted when I was 4 by a family who we were all happy to be part of. I was adopted because my parents did drugs and were nearly always unconscious. We were malnourished and my sister was looking after us. So I guess the positive was we got a new family and well that’s where things were supposed to get better but in fact things somehow got worse.

My brother […]

5/25/2016 7 comments

Havent done anything

by turquoise 5/23/2016

written by turquoise

I cant seem to face the shame of my past. Stupid decisions and bad choices lock me up in the house. I have no job. I have no purpose and I dont care enough to change it. Ill lose my house soon. Thats when itll come down to it.

5/23/2016 2 comments

Just blew up at my grandmother

by brokenandbent30 5/16/2016

written by brokenandbent30

My grandma has been living here because of certain circumstances, but she keeps inviting over my little bad ass cousin and she disrupts the entire house! My grandma even told her it was all right for her to stay today and she missed school. For what? Just to go around and get on everyone’s nerves in the house? The girl does NOT listen at all. She’s a bad apple. Period. The girl finally left today and I heard her tell my grandma “See you next week” so I blew the fuck up at my grandmother because this is NOT just her house.

It’s so inconsiderate to […]

5/16/2016 4 comments

I’m in eminent danger

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/14/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

I’m not wanting anyone to say stop. I’m standing on the chair in the basement of my house. I have paracord tied securely to the steel beams of the house. A noose around my neck. Smoking my favorite cigarette. With a Guinness and a tall drink of jameson.

FUCK IT. IM GONE.

5/14/2016 12 comments

Don’t cry or feel too bad. Not all martyrs see divinity.But at least you tried.

by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany 5/11/2016

written by retrospectivesuicidalepiphany

I’m gonna clean the house.
I’m gonna fix that fence.
In my final hours,
I’m gonna tie up these loose ends.
I won’t leave a note
For anyone to find.
Cause tomorrow they’ll know
Just what I’ve done tonight.

5/11/2016 2 comments

feel like a failure

by Wintergirl 5/6/2016

written by Wintergirl

I’m not doing well tonight. Got in a fight with my boyfriend. It wasn’t a huge fight or anything but it just left me feeling so bad. We had a nice dinner planned. Well, he did. Then one little thing I didn’t do set him off and now he’s sleeping but he made himself something to eat. It’s absolutely stupid really. He was mad because didn’t have a beer for him when he got home from work. Nevermind the fact I was on my way back from the store when he happened to get home an hour early. No use explaining. I really didn’t feel […]

5/6/2016 12 comments

it’s funny what triggers a memory

by Wintergirl 5/6/2016

written by Wintergirl

I just found an article about a 13 years old boy that died close to where I live. The article was sketchy and seemed to be leaving too much out but had no trouble describing the boys mother holding his life less body rocking back and forth in the ditch. At first I thought maybe he got hit by a car….but the article would have just said that, why leave that out? I thought more on it, the kid killed himself. I found another article that confirmed it. The whole article was deeply disturbing as it described how the kids on the school bus saw […]

5/6/2016 1 comment

The shittiest way to go …Hey I’m talking to you!

by Cold_Sleep 4/30/2016

written by Cold_Sleep

FANTASY STORY

art? not real. don’t shoot! I’m naked!

– amigo english not my numero uno tongue, sorry for any bad cooking mistakes! –

WARNING SHITTY STORY AND EVEN SHITTIER SHITTING SCENE.

I send my girlfriend to a 7 day vacation out of town.

I need some time for myself to deal with my emotions and depression and possible something else,

I will stay home while she is gone. And take a friend with you, don’t go alone, will even cover some cost

for her or him I say to my girl, she smiles too me and agrees to it, few days later, its time!

she has left the house […]

4/30/2016 1 comment

guilt…

by Soco 4/24/2016

written by Soco

Had to ditch visiting my mum today cos I cant leave the house. Shes going thru a rough time but I still cant help her. Now im sitting hear hating myself, racked with guilt. The spiral begins. Been repeating this pattern for sooo long!!

4/24/2016 4 comments

Energy

by JiminyCrispies 4/14/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

So my family think I’ve either gone completely insane, or I’m on drugs. This energy and hyperactivity hasn’t gone away – in fact, it’s getting worse. My sleep is also next to nonexistent. I can’t slow down my speech, and I can’t stop moving around.

I got this sudden urge to go to the beach, and so I made my stepdad take me since I wasn’t allowed out the house alone – we went the beach at 9:30 at night. And I literally did a karaoke in the car in the way home again – I have also decided I’m rebuilding hospitals to give them all […]

4/14/2016 6 comments

Limp mode

by badcat 4/10/2016

written by badcat

It’s like I’m stuck in limp mode like a vehicle does when something seriously goes wrong with it. Even when I’m not in a depressed state I find myself conserving energy in everything I do. I’ll have a piece of toast for breakfast instead of eggs because it’s easier. I won’t do my hair or wear decent clothes (laundry) if I’m not leaving the house (which is at least 5 days of the week). Then when I do leave the house I do the bare minimum to just not look like a complete slob. It seems like complete laziness, but I just can’t seem to justify making […]

4/10/2016 3 comments

Feeling Weird

by JiminyCrispies 4/8/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

My morning was reasonably okay-ish, until I found out my stepdad had been our drinking since 12. He came home around 4 and he and my mum had an argument, so he left to go drinking again. He came back around 10:30 and was completely drunk to the point where he could barely stand up.

Since the argument I’ve been feeling weird. It’s like how I felt last year before I went ‘crazy’ – for lack of a better word – for a week or so. My mind is racing, and my energy is building up. I feel like cleaning the house, but going for a […]

4/8/2016 1 comment

awful

by evildandelions 4/1/2016

written by evildandelions

Yesterday I woke up sad and crying. Two hours later my period started. This isn’t the first time it’s happened, where my period coincides with a drastic turn in mood. Maybe birth control would help?

I spent so much of yesterday crying, just hurting so much. And today’s been pretty much the same, except I’m alone in the house. I tried to do the things that are supposed to help; I meditated (have been somewhat regularly), I did some exercise, I’ve tried to distract myself, forced myself to do some chores and some homework. But it doesn’t go away or lessen. It hurts so much.

It hurts […]

4/1/2016 2 comments

This is really long.

by BlondeWig 3/30/2016

written by BlondeWig

I’ve realized that I never truly introduced myself to the people of this site and I feel like I should explain what people see on the outside of me, rather than my extremely dark and weird mind that I see. I’m not afraid to get personal on here.

Well here goes: HELLO 🙂 lol
My name is Emily, last name doesn’t matter, I’m SO CLOSE to 19 years old. I live in the great white north of Canada, jk, It’s pretty ugly. Here’s my story, and how my life went wrong, my life started out as everyone elses did. When I was 7 years old, my […]

3/30/2016 5 comments

I’m Scared

by JiminyCrispies 3/26/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

Just when my head started to get quieter for the first time today (the voices have been constant), my stepdad came home with his friend after drinking for a couple hours. When they got here, my mum left to go out. Two hours ago my aunt and uncle and their kids came round. So now the house is full of four screaming kids and drunk adults. My anxiety is horrible, the voices are horrible, the figures are horrible. I’ve been crying upstairs for the last hour. I need to get away from everyone. They all keep opening the front door. They’re going to let the […]

3/26/2016 10 comments

i guess

by jasal 3/26/2016

written by jasal

a lot of things are going wrong but i can’t blame anyone but myself for all that. it’s amazing how close to peace i feel when i contemplate killing myself. “why not do it today?” is a thought that crosses my mind almost daily, today being no exception. i should just do it. get it over with. stop thinking so hard about plans and letters and waiting for a day when everyone’s out of the house. i don’t care anymore. why waste any more time? i should just do it today.

3/26/2016 2 comments

The House 2

by EmoPanda 3/25/2016

written by EmoPanda

As the brown haired girl with black eyes walked into the house the father sat there staring at her. She asked why and he said he had to deal with people like her at work and then had to come home and deal with her. Her eyes got even more dark as her emotion saddened. She asked him if her being alive inconvenienced him and you know what he said? He said yes. She knew that she shouldn’t be here anymore so she processed to leave but didn’t make it. Not just yet.

3/25/2016 22 comments

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