Okay so i’m a teen and like a lot of people on here i have been suicidal lately. Now i’m not the best writter so sorry in advance but i just gotta get this off my chest. Like i said before im a teen and i just feel so depressed all the time. I have all of these issues wrong with me i have ADHD, depression, OCD, cold sweats, anxiety, trouble sleeping. really bad acne scars, suicidal, no friends or anyone to talk too and a lazy eye (which may seem kind of silly but im really self conscious about it). Iv tried suicide 2 times during this past year both times taking a larger amount of pills asprin to be specific and it didn’t work obviously but i felt really sick and couldn’t hear anything but a loud ring for the rest of that week. I try to be nice to people but everyone always end up being an asshole. for the past few days i just cant stop thinking about just ending it. i really don’t know what to do. i tried to tell my mom but she just laughed at me and i don’t live with my dad. my mom works most of the day. The only time i feel at ease is when i smoke or drink its so peaceful and takes the world away but if i go 3 days or so without it i feel depressed aging. NOW don’t get me wrong i don’t smoke or drink that much (once in a while) but when i do it just takes everything away. I really don’t want to go see a shrink i’m a loner and don’t like to talk to people whats your thoughts? what should i do?
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I definitely recommend getting some medication to help you through these feelings. Teenage years are the WORST. They really are. And if you’re not the perfect, popular teen, it’s hell on earth. I’ve been there, as well. And it was hard. Really hard. I tried to kill myself when I was 15. Failed, obviously. But I’m happy it failed.
Once I got into my 20’s, everything got so much better. I met a wonderful guy, got married, got a kitten, started a business, etc etc. It was better than I ever imagined my life could have been.
My father was abusive, my brother was abusive. My family was poor, I had low self esteem, and some anxiety and other emotional issues due to the abuse at home. I was a lonely kid, through my teen years. I never would have thought that anyone would love me, or wanna be with me, or want to start a family with me. But I met that person, and I put all my fears aside and I fell in love. And it was amazing. It wasn’t perfect, but even through the tough times together, I was grateful that we were together.
You’re young. You have your whole life ahead of you, and once you’re out of the crappy teen years, YOU can control your life, your destiny. You don’t have to put up with as much bs from people. Believe me, it’s very freeing once you get to be out on your own. It’s scary, and working sucks sometimes, but you have real freedom.
Hold out until you’re in your 20’s at least. And go speak with a doctor or counselor about your emotional issues. Medication can really help you get through these rough patches.
Also try meditation whenever you’re feeling stressed or want to die. It can help calm your mind.
Thanks really giving me a little hope
I’m sorry your like that n always feel so depressed n have your anxiety n all etc etc. I hope u can get better n I know it’s not easy I’m always in a intense amount of pain I don’t like it my spine is curved I have spinal scoliosis n I have muscle spasms n anxiety myself I have tried to commit suicide by trying to choke myself with some hard wires around my neck I feel very useless n I have be this way for about three long years I’m 21 I have tried to get help n just waiting to see but if I don’t I’m going to find another way to kill myself I’m very tired of this pain I have myself
Thanks i hope you get better too 🙁
I will be your friend!!! i need a friend too…
The acne scars, I have them and hate them, too. I am newly sober (just finished a rehab program). Though not a teen, I suffer from a lot that you describe. I found a therapist I am comfortable with and that helps. And don’t be afraid to try new things even though you’re a loner. I feel anxiety in social situations as I have dark circles under my eyes (insomniac) and my face took a beating from some very severe acne (seriously at times it felt and appeared as though I had been punched in the face).
I am an art major in college now and these folks don’t really give a damn what I look like; the more scars you have, the more interesting is the vibe in these environments.
Anyway, find where you fit with people who aren’t superficial. There are people of all shapes, sizes, color and age in my studio classes. We all get along just fine.
You will find your way. Chin up.
And watch out for the booze, drugs & cigs. They’ll getcha if you’re not careful. I personally prefer sober. It’s much more difficult in the short term but worth it in the medium/long term of things.